The Last Day

She stood quietly in a far corner. Waiting for her turn to be called by me as I helped the LVN’s yesterday during accucheck hour. I knew her for every weekend that I helped out, she had been there, for how long I couldn’t recall. She used to be impatient, always whining like the rest of the female diabetics. Yesterday was no different. The usual bickering among them. The whining. Gossiping. Except there was something different with her this time. She was smiling. Quiet. Reserved. Her face glowing with happiness. I had not seen that before from this particular inmate.

“Cut it down, Ladies!” I yelled through the thick glass, partition window. I tried to only call 2 diabetics at a time. I never allowed anyone to try to distract me with complaints, knowing it could only take that precious second before anyone could try to hide the needles they were allowed to use to poke their fingers and the syringes to administer to those who need their morning doses of insulin. They could improvise and potentially make a weapon out of that small needle or sometimes, use them for tattooing. Silence. The deputy was pleased that these female inmates listened to me.

“Miss B.!” I yelled as she met my stare and quietly approached the window. Her smile lingered.

“Good morning, Ma’am…This is my last day and I just want to thank you for everything you did,” she uttered.

“You’re going home?” I asked.

“Yup! I’m being released today,” she responded.

“No wonder why you’re so happy. Take care of yourself out there. And try to make things better so you don’t come back here,” I added.

“Yes, Ma’am. Thank you.” she replied as she handed me back the cup that contained the used “poker” [needles].

Haven’t we been smiling, too? Since knowing that we have been freed by accepting Christ into our hearts? Knowing that despite the struggles we are all in in this big prison [world], we have this “hope” that is not short-lived but lasts eternal.

Oh, how I long sometimes to be with Him in His Kingdom. But I am still here in this world. For a purpose. You, too. But how traumatic it is to live here and not have that eternal hope. For those who don’t want to believe in His eternal promise of life, they are just stuck in this world’s system. Striving for popularity, pleasure, money, prestige or power.

Yes, with Christ, to die is better. We are being removed from all the troubles here. And to see Him face to face? Unfathomable! If we are feeling loved now and we know how much He values each of us, what more to be with Him? But if you are not ready to die, then, you are missing a lot of things here in this world. Things that have eternal weight. Things that are not eaten by moths. Things that do not rust. We don't need to wait until we die to have them. We can start now. Right here. In this corner. Now. You can start smiling if you allow yourself to know the freedom that Jesus offers.

Yes, For me, I’ll keep showing my smile, despite the ills of this world. We are all in this fight together. It is a privilege to trust in Christ but also it is, too in suffering for Him. I am smiling knowing that I’m free because of what Jesus had done for us. I’m not afraid to die anymore. And for now, I will ask for His guidance and wisdom to help me live the remaining days of my life devoting my time to reflect what His love and grace means to those who haven’t come to know Him.

"Have you accepted the Lord Jesus into your heart?"

Don't be a prisoner of this world. Be a prisoner of hope!



“For I live in eager expectation and hope that I will never do anything that causes me shame, but that I will always be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past, and that my life will always honor Christ, whether I live or die. For to me, living is for Christ, and dying is even better.” - Philippians 1:20-21

The Boss

I just want to give you an idea of what occurs in the prison, day in, day out. 24/7. Many arrestees come in, just so belligerent. They have no second thoughts about committing crimes, about hurting others, and breaking the law by using illegal substances outside. Yet, when they come in, they think that they can do whatever they want to do inside the prison, disregarding authorities.



"Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God. Consequently, he who rebels against the authority is rebelling against what God has instituted, and those who do so will bring judgment on themselves." - Romans 13:2

Authorities are appointed by God. Christians are obliged to obey God by respecting government authority. Even if abuses have occurred, we are to respect the said authorities, out of respect for the Lord. But we must please no man but only God! He is our Ultimate Boss!

He Leads

So, I decided to call from home before going to work last night, to verify and make sure that I was still scheduled at Intake. Much to my surprise when they told me that I would be at the Clinic. It was a good thing I called or else, I would have gone straight to Intake.

The charge nurse greeted me as I walked in. She was supposed to leave early and that was why there was a change of schedule. She had me replace her as the charge nurse when she left. The night was chaotic even at the Clinic. But it became manageable. I had learned to continue to trust and give everything to the Lord. Unscheduled sick calls kept coming one after another. Doctor’s orders were piled up. But the other nurse and I just kept working, doing what we had to do. Every hospital return was seen. All unscheduled sick call’s issues were addressed. The orders were down to only a few charts.

I was surprised that the oxygen concentrator was not taken cared of for 2 inmates that were housed in a special medical unit. As soon as the charge nurse left, I made it a priority to check on those 2 inmates and had gathered the equipments I needed for their use. I found the long tubing that could be connected to the machine so they could walk around their cell without being deprived of the needed oxygen. Except there was no connector to the nasal cannula that they used to be able to breathe the oxygen. I always had a scissor in my pocket and working now for years, nurses just have to learn to improvise. That moment was nothing unusual. So, I tried to cut the end of the cannula’s tubing and it did fit right into the long tubing connector. [I was thanking the Lord!!! I knew that I didn’t need to worry about anything knowing He was in control].

Ever changing schedules….way like our plans in our lives. We don’t have that control. Plans do change. If we are not committing each of our plans with God, there is always that gnawing fear. Fear of unknown. Fear of “what if’s?” God truly doesn’t need much from us to accomplish His plan for our lives. It’s the opposite. We are the ones who need Him and definitely will not make it without Him. Any situations or plans that do not go the way we want them to go seem to paralyze us knowing we are limited with our capabilities. But with God, His power and might will help us see the way out. Through prayers, they help us focus on Him instead of the problems. After all, there is no problem or trial bigger than the mighty God we serve. So, glory be to God! And thank you for your prayers….

By the way, the Intake Nurse [which was supposed to be me] was overwhelmed and had to open many charts for those inmates who had medical or mental health issues. She was just so fatigued that she requested if she could be at the Clinic tonight. [Please pray for us working in the jail. Many inmates are now sicker than before].


“A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” ~ Proverbs 16:9

“And now the Sovereign Lord and his Spirit have sent me this message: “The Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel, says: I am the Lord your God, Who teaches you what is good and leads you along the paths you should follow.” - Isaiah 48:17

Oh no! It's August!

August is here!!! The month I dreaded a while back that I was just so grateful I posted about my fear because your visits and prayers meant a lot to me and had given me the boost I needed to continue to trust in Him and be reminded of His power and might that help us accomplish the tasks He assigned to each of us.

Tonight, I’ll be working at the prison’s Intake. A chaotic place to be in. A lot of unseen enemies torturing their unwary preys. Where asymptomatic bodies loaded with unknown illegal substances walk in, only to fall later, tremble, become confused, become combative.

If I may ask for your favor friends to pray for me as I choose to offer myself for Him to “send me…” I thank the Lord for giving us all these wonderful friendships in this blogosphere that even through prayers, we are able to help each other out. He already knows even before we ask. But what a beautiful ensemble to see many bent knees and folded hands, praying together in agreement. Feeling the Oneness, the unity that comes from His love. To God be the glory!

Lord, I won't be afraid as I go to work tonight in this specific area of the prison. Knowing I have You as My Shield, my all in all. You already know what is to transpire even before I walk in. I will rely on nothing but You. Because You have the control, no matter how chaotic this place is. I ask Lord for Your wisdom and discernment. For me to be able to see the unseen and screen those who will walk in without symptoms, yet, are loaded with so much amount of illegal substances. Guide me Lord and give me patience, to deal with combative arrestees and those officers who are rushing to have their arrested people be booked in, despite the screening process needed to be done by me. Lord, I ask for Your protection. I bind the evil spirits torturing the unwary people. Cover me with Your Holy Blood and surround the facility, in and out with Your mighty angels Oh Lord. Thank You Lord for all of Your provisions. Your love. Your grace. Your Power and Might.

Thank You Lord for the gift of friendship You have given us in this blogging world. I pray for all of my blogging friends. And in reality, I pray for my spiritual family. I ask that You bless them all Oh Lord. To give them the healing they need, both physically and spiritually. Lord, help us all to draw nearer to You. Thank You for Your forgiveness Lord. Please forgive me for all of my sins. In Jesus' Name. Amen.