“So tell me! Why aren’t you working more? What keeps you
busy at home?”
A probing question hurled as I sat down and talked with
other co-workers on one of our rare, quiet shift this weekend. This nurse
rarely saw me as I hardly worked on the shifts she was usually scheduled
often. I knew even then…to most of them,
working part time appeared as if I was a lazy nurse or someone who cared for
her family more than anything. The former was not true. The latter…True! And
why not?
I remembered telling one nurse, my family would always be more
important than my job. Was there bragging involved? Not at all. It was the
truth. The truth learned at the span of years. As every Word was being spoken
to me. A powerful Voice that reminded me here and there, contentment was the
key. Contentment that came upon learning of God’s grace.
As I lost my regular position at work, it was contentment
that comforted me. Knowing His provisions never failed. They were never late or
too early. They were never too much or too little.
After a fiery trial at work for the past 2 years, I had
learned to take and tackle things one day at a time.
Jesus said, “"So don't worry about tomorrow, for
tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today.”
(Matthew 6:34;NLT)
“I am busy….” was my only reply. I knew that didn’t help to
satiate her curiosity. But I had been always careful with whom to share my
private life with. As I never tried to know others’ unless they volunteered or
some, requesting to pray for them.
The things of this world are so distracting. The eternal
treasures are rather not easily sought. But what rich treasures if we pursue!
“Why don’t I work a lot?”
It’s not because I don’t want to. It’s because I want to
discover what God has for me this year. Learning what comes to my heart, one
day at a time. Praying that even with the loss of this position, I would not
worry about it anymore. Knowing my life is in His hands. Knowing that this job
in Corrections will never really make me happy and will never make me feel
contented.
May God take away every worldly desire in this heart of
mine! Oh…that I may see His glory in all the things that come my way. Be it a
trial or a blessing. One day at a time. I want to see the beauty of His
holiness. For under His power, no strength of any life’s storms could ever
compare!
