I don’t even know how to start…
“Do I recall my passwords even?” That was the question that
started bugging me. As I haven’t gone to work for a little over a month.
Nursing my right knee that I had accidentally injured. Though without so much
pain, the swelling took a longer course to exit.
But…
Come Friday night, yes, I am going back to work. The
Supervisor had already confirmed with me the other night that I was scheduled
this Friday to work with them. But for some reason, I wasn’t as excited as I
used to be. I think I was more of tired of all injustices and wrongs I had
seen, heard and even had gone through myself.
I do miss some people I work with. Those who work hard.
Those who are truly concern when someone is going through a tough time. I have
not forgotten them.
Jesus’ prayer echoes in my heart:
My prayer is not that
you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one.(John
17:15)
It was clear, He prayed for His disciples not to be taken
out of this place. But for the Father to keep them safe, be kept away from
sinning and strengthened for each one’s duty.
Though I'm not excited, I need to go back to a dark place. The prison...Surrounded by thick walls.
Light barely going in through those tiny windows in each tiny cells. With
inmates busy planning evil things. Yet, others go through a major transformations inside their hearts,
be it good or bad.
My knees might be weaker but He is strengthening me. To go
back and continue what He started there for me. I know that it will not be easy
when the thick, heavy metal sliding doors open up for me. I know…
I’ll be ready no matter what comes my way…Because this work
is not for my glory. It is His.
Our purposes may differ. But we all have the same important
goals for our Lord Jesus. That is… to follow in His footsteps and not seek the
objects men want in this place.
And I pray…that may His light shine through me as I go back to work
this Friday…So people can see my changed heart because of what Jesus did for me.
Because not all things are earned…
Only one was already done…And given freely… Because God
loves us all…
It is His gift…
