I had given my advice a little over two weeks ago. Today
marks the start of my resignation from being a Correctional Nurse after working
in the prison for 15 years. I remember bits and pieces from back then. How I
used to have nightmares during the first three months as I transitioned from
being an Orthopedic nurse to a career that I had no knowledge of. How scary it was! Feeling each nightmare was
real. To the point that I had almost quit! But the nurse who oriented me kept
pushing for me.
“Give it 3 months, Rcubes,” she often uttered every time I
tried to vent out my fears.
I personally approached her one morning, few months ago and
thanked her.
Little did I know… That 3 months would turn to 15 years. All
because of her encouragement. We hugged. Reminisced the times we had learned
working with each other. And the wisdom we gained after it all.
Reflecting now, I know very well…This is the arena where God
has increased my faith and made His weapons known to my heart and mind. He made
me aware of the importance of depending on Him and Him alone. In able for me to
succeed and finish each task without FEAR. In attaining this dream that was out of my comfort zones.
I have not scheduled myself to work for a couple of months
until my resignation today. Lately, I’m having nightmares again. About inmates
running after me. Of wanting to hurt me. Except…this time, I am not afraid. I
remember finding myself praying so hard in each dream. Hiding and not being
found by the evil man. As I wrestle, arming myself with nothing but PRAYERS.
I don’t know yet what is to come. But I know God uses each
season to teach me a spiritual lesson in everything that comes to my path. For
now, I’m enjoying even more time with my family. Learning to try many recipes.
Savoring the peace that comes from a clean and quiet home. Slowing each second to truly reflect on what matters the most in this life.
And knowing deep in my heart, no matter what nightmare comes
to mind, I wouldn’t be afraid. Knowing that God has His own plans for me and that
my dreams, real or not, will never be
thwarted by any enemy.
Any ending marks the beginning of something in God’s
timetable…
