The Heavy Weight

I felt the achy pain radiating from my neck down to both of my shoulders, as I secured the black strap resting on my right shoulder with my right hand to prevent the heavy, red emergency bag from slipping.

It was almost 7 o’clock in the morning as I ran toward the outside yard of the prison’s Intake where a neat row of huge buses and its engines were warming up to take hundreds of prisoners to different courts for them to see the judge. The rising sun’s rays were peeking through in one corner of the still lingering darkness of the previous night.

Down on the cold ground was this pale-looking male, dressed up in gold, meaning he has some mental health problem. His hands chained in front of his waist, same with both of his feet, he quivered from the constant blasts of the icy, early morning winds. The stench from the fumes of the diesel engines running surrounded the corners of the yard.

No one witnessed when he fell. But it was obvious that he needed an urgent treatment. I noticed the huge bump he sustained on the right side of his forehead. Fortunately, there were no other major wounds or problems. He tried to answer my queries with a mentality like that of a toddler, but he was making sense.

“Don’t move your neck!” I commanded as I saw him trying to look way past below his feet that needed him to elevate his head. As I requested for blankets from the deputies to shield him from the cold winds, I immediately requested for an ambulance so he could be brought to the hospital.

While monitoring him, the achy pain I had been feeling persisted. But I knew it wasn’t the heavy weight from the emergency bag that had caused it. It was the weight of the responsibilities I faced that night.

Responsibilities that nurses like me, whether at the hospital, prison, nursing homes, birthing places and other places carry on our hands and shoulders as we face situations needing timely interventions and where autonomous judgments have no room for errors. It is in those moments where we play a tug o’war between life and death.

Like Jesus…It wasn’t the heavy wooden cross that He carried upon His shoulders…It was the weight of the sins of the world…So you and I may live…

“God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.” – 2 Corinthians 5:21 [NIV]

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

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We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].