Letting Go

So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him. ~ Matthew 7:11 (NLT)

I looked at the calendar behind me as I started typing now. A little over a week. That’s all that’s left. How fast time really goes by. Much more, now that I’m not working and has more time to notice things. Like sand, time does go through my fingers in a fast pace.

A little over a week…That’s the time to “let go” of our child. Who will pursue his higher education. His passion to draw things and produce wonderful art from his endless imagination. The “gift” my husband and I have seen since he was little.

Is my husband and I really “letting go?” After investing many years of protecting, loving, providing and teaching this incredible man we are both so blessed with. It is not easy. But love bears all things. Endures all things. Does not keep no record of wrongs.

I used to worry. Given the circumstances of what’s going on around us. Of what I have learned from working in the prison how evil men can be and how early some are being released now. Our child is going to a place. To a new environment. To meet and live with strangers. But he needs to grow.

As I look at each of the passing day, I know I can’t worry but instead pray about it. Daily. As I ask, I know in my heart that is the first thing I need to do at every remaining days. To seek for what God plans to do for our child’s life and for us, as his parents. And to keep knocking until “worry” has no place or root in the soil of our hearts as parents.

“I’m excited for you!” I told my child one morning. “You are entering a new phase of discovery in your life.” “But in doing so, always start your day with the Lord.” “And end your day with the Lord.”

“I love you mom,” he replied.

Now I feel peace. Joy. Things that only come from Him. Deep down I know that worrying shouldn’t take over our hearts and minds as parents. Because worry can never be bigger than our good Father in heaven Who can give anything we ask for according to His will. Who works all things for the good of those who love Him.

I am proud of my child the way he absorbs things we share about his heavenly Father. I know, what he learned and continue to learn on his own will carry him to many places as he does things he is gifted with. No matter how much praises he got from his mentors and peers and us, he knows Who to give it back to. No!!! It is not “letting go” as being apart. This is the time for my husband and I to “let him go”, as a brother in Christ, to where God wants him to be.

We are still his parents and would always be. Actually, in those days that are lost, I feel him closer to us, seeking advice when necessary and loving and respecting my husband and I more. Those lost days are the very foundation which he may be able to use what he learned and continue to learn and to gain more wisdom and know more about God's plan for his life.
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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

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We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].