My Trial

"These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold--though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world." 
- 1 Peter 1:7 (NLT)

It took two long years…Awaiting for EEOC’s help and decision for my charge against my employer for what I believed they had done: discrimination against my disability. Not only was I demoted to a Per Diem position from a regular employee status, I was also accused of not disclosing about my disability when I was hired. 

It was difficult to trace back more than 10 years. I made copies of my own health file. To which I discovered that I did write in my own handwriting, advising the examining Nurse Practicioner during my pre-employment physical about my neck injury I sustained from working in the busy Orthopedic floor from a well-known hospital down south. I saw the range of motions she had me perform.

“What is your evidence?” I asked the Sergeant who repeated the accusation during my second meeting with not only her but with three more who held high positions in our work.

“Sure…Wait a minute,” she arrogantly responded. She closed the door behind her and after 5 minutes, returned to her vacated seat and handed me a white piece of paper.

It was a copy from my medical file. It read:

“Medically cleared to work as a Correctional Nurse…”

I couldn't help but smirk. But I tried so hard to shut my mouth. I couldn’t believe that such a prominent figure who took an oath to her service just lied. All of us raised our hands to take that oath: “to serve and be willing to stand for what is right, being a part of law enforcement.” 

“But you accepted the Per Diem position,” the EEOC lady stated, interrupting the flow of thoughts that ran like a flood. Memories of my own suffering from those people’s hands during the course of 2 years as I waited.

“I never signed anything but I did accept the Per Diem,” I answered.

“But I did that because they had told me that if I didn’t, I would not be a part of the county anymore…”
 Meaning…I would have been terminated.

She didn’t say anything. I asked further questions. To which she never answered except to let out a promise to call me back. That call never came. Instead, I received a letter from them…Closing or dismissing my case…Just like that…

I was devastated. The help that many people, not just me, looked up to, could never be helpful in the end. I imagined the others who had gone before me with limited resources and who were given no choice but to give up.

That was how I felt. To give up. To surrender…

But as a Christian, I wouldn’t…There was Someone I look up to Who never fails me. His obedience to God should be my model. He endured. He suffered much. And He prevailed. 

I never got any answers regarding my inquiry for the notice that they needed to give me…The right to sue. It is not about winning money. It is about myself standing up for the abuse of power committed and still is being committed from my workplace. No one I knew had ever stood up. It was just fight of words. I never saw actions. I don’t want my experience to happen to anyone else in that place. If this is what God wants for me to do at this time, I will never give up until I do get that truth whether my employer discriminated me or not. I have no fear because I know this is the right thing for me to do. And that’s how it is when it comes to suffering. It can be costly. Most of the time. But it is worthy in the end.  Especially when we suffer for Christ. Knowing He suffered for us in the first place. We have different trials that we are in. But such life’s storms can help refine our faith even more. To God be the glory.

(Please pray for me and my husband as we travel this Wednesday and try to get clarification from EEOC. Please pray that the Lord will give me His wisdom and discernment. May the right lawyer hear my case and defend me though I trust in our Greatest Advocate...Thank you to all of you who are always quick to release their breaths of prayers. A song to our Lord’s abode. God bless and protect us all).
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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: NLT Bible ]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].