It's Your Choice

“Maybe the atheist cannot find God for the same reason a thief cannot find a policeman.”  ~Author Unknown

“Do I have a choice?” an angry female inmate replied back at me. I asked her if I may take her blood pressure and pulse.

I was trying to help the other nurse who was getting his supplies to clean her left wrist, visible with superficial cuts she did to herself with a razor blade she managed to remove from her shaver. Couple of days ago, she was just placed on Suicide Watch except, the Mental Health Doctor did not want to give her any medications. I didn’t know the reason but usually, when the Psych Doctor did something like that, it meant that the inmate was just playing a game and just wanted something…Just to get something. His or her way.

Prior to sitting down, a struggle occurred between her and two female deputies from her unit, as our own Infirmary Deputy had joined in to control her combative behavior. I peeked through the door and saw this young female. Looking at the prior history, she was already in and out of the prison many, many times. For such a young age, that was sad.

“Yes, you do!” I told her when she gave me that nasty reply.

“You have the right to refuse and I want to make sure you’re aware of that!” I added.

She grew quiet as if she was contemplating of what she needed to do next.

“Well, then, I don’t want you to take my blood pressure,” she replied.

“That’s all you needed to say,” I told her as I looked her straight into her eyes. “Simple as that. You don’t need to be angry. You need to relax.”

She was quiet the whole time and became cooperative with the male nurse who started cleaning her left wrist and had applied a dab of antibiotic ointment over the superficial cuts. He wrapped it neatly with a gauze and then, she was sent to Suicide Watch to be monitored until she was to be evaluated again by the Mental Health Doctor.

If there is one thing that God cannot do, it is He can’t force anyone to love Him. It is our choice to either believe in Him or not. It is our choice to love Him or not. But He had shown His choice from the start…He loved us all first. Do you believe and love Him?

23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
   test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
   and lead me in the way everlasting. - Psalm 139:23, 24 (NIV)

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

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We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].