I flipped the calendar early this morning and felt sadness
instead of a welcoming joy to the new month that just arrived. I had gotten a
copy of the new schedule for June and realized that our supervisor would be on
vacation for both the weekends that I had scheduled myself to work.
“See you next time,” she smiled as she asked me at the same
time why there seemed to be a little bit of worry glowing from my face that
morning we said our “goodbyes.”
“Not a big deal…Enjoy your vacation,” I replied as she
insisted why I seemed to be worried when she knew me as always being calm even
when I had faced such a difficult time at our workplace.
“Sorry…I’m happy that you are taking a vacation but not as
excited knowing how some will abuse your absence to do what they want to do…”
She grew silent. Her smile disappeared. I thought I saw her
swallow whatever “lump” formed in her throat. She agreed. She knew the truth to
what I said as she had just gotten upset recently about a particular new worker
she heard was already becoming lazy, few nights she wasn’t working and talked to
her right away as soon as she came back to work.
“There is a saying, Rcubes…. ‘When the cat is away, the
mouse will play…”
“I’ll find out when I come back…”
“Nurse R…Forget work, okay? Enjoy your time with your
family,” I ended our conversation as we separated in the staff’s parking lot to
locate where we both parked our cars.
I still felt the heavy heart as I started my engine.
Grasping for my cell phone, I texted my husband and son that I would be on my
way home. The heaviness bringing back to what must the disciples felt as they
prepared for Jesus’ departure. Away from them. Jesus knew their heavy hearts.
And right away comforted them:
“Do
not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My
Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that
I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and
take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”
– John 14:1-4 (NIV)
The heaviness slowly disappeared. As truth
flowed and was being fed into my mind and heart. The supervisor’s absence was
only temporary. How much more with Jesus’?. She would find out what would
happen and if there was any wrong doing, she would be quick to address those
issues as everyone knew how she dealt with problems among her night crew. And Jesus?
He is coming back…He said that…
His Truth permeating by then to my spirit.
In His absence at the present time and as the “unquiet turmoil” increases each
day, my heart will continue to trust in Him alone. Knowing that by trusting and
believing in Him is the only way to calm down and relieve me of my sorrows
during these difficult times. I know… “I won’t be shaken no matter what comes
my way knowing Jesus spoke of Truth…That He is the only Way, the Truth and the
Life… And that no one can go to the Father but by Him.” My faith in the
ever-faithful God is the “9-1-1” I can call at times of distress. No! I won’t be moved!!! My heart leaping with joy at that moment.
“Because
if God is for us, who can be against us?”
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. – Psalm 62:6 (NIV)
