It's About....Me?

There were three of them…Against me…They felt so strong knowing I didn’t have anyone to defend myself. Tired as I seemed since I worked the night before, my mind had never been more alert than that scheduled crucial meeting to wound me and specifically intended to smother me.

What they didn’t perceive was I was not truly alone. If they thought that their words that were so far apart from what was being written on a piece of paper would get away, they were wrong. If they thought that I would not remember being stabbed, being punched, being beaten, they were wrong.

I had brought my God with me. They didn’t see Him, because if they did, their actions would have been done with LOVE. And He saw it all. His heart broken as they started lashing at me. He cried as I cried in my car. He did what He usually would do...To hold me tight in His loving arms. To make me rest in His faithful and wonderful promises...

I was sure they were talented. I was sure they knew a lot of things. And in power, they did serve. Unfortunately, not to serve others but just themselves.

“I want you to look at the person sitting next to you and tell them, “You are more important than me,” uttered our pastor yesterday during our earliest Sunday fellowship.

“You are more important than me,” I whispered to my husband sitting on my left, whose eyes were intentionally enlarged so close to my face as he was saying the same thing…

And to my right, where my precious child was sitting, “I am more precious than you…” And he started laughing, not expecting that I didn’t say what the pastor wanted us to say. But he knew I was only kidding, as he enjoyed a simple laughter with me. He knew what I told him often….

“Do not think highly of yourself but of others,” I often reminded before I sent him off to school.


“Stay humble, mom,” he answered as he would give me a hug and a kiss and uttered his “I love you.”

But I loved what my pastor quoted…

“No one is more important than He Who is the Chief of this house, Who is the Head of this church….”

“Jesus Christ…”

Yes, that was the Truth! I wasn’t important. You were not important. He is!!! And it would be easy to find that out in our lives who would be important. We could all just stand in front of the mirror and see what the reflection would be…

“For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” – Matthew 6:21

Oh Lord, please empower me with Your Holy Spirit. Remind me that I had died long ago and that now, You are the One living in me.  Through this trial, I want to thank You for reminding me, to defend myself, yet respond with the kind of love that comes from You. Please cover us with Your Holy blood and surround us [Your children]with Your mighty angels. For once, I had never felt defeated even if that was what they were thinking. They didn’t know I had You. “What can man do to me?”

Please guide me, give me discernment as I get up after being replenished by Your power and might. And yet, Lord, I ask that You bless them even more, despite their wrong motives. Help me forgive them the way You have forgiven me. I love You Lord. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Friends, today is the day that I am getting up, fully energized by the Spirit, like I had always been. I never backed down knowing their accusations and motives were not true. I knew they were trying to wound me because their hearts were void of the Savior’s love. And all they wanted to happen was for their own motives. Please continue to pray for me. I feel that. And I thank you. Please forgive me if I haven’t been responding at this time but just know, that I treasure all of your comments, your prayers, your love and your willingness to stand by me…If I am responding to let them know that they cannot do everything that they want to do, it is because I want the Lord to be glorified. To Him be the glory forever. I love you all in His Holy Name….God bless.

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

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We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].