I saw their smirk on the corners of my eyes. I felt the heat of being mocked. Not by these human faces I was facing behind a closed door meeting. They felt good thinking that I had no defense at all with what they wanted to say. With what they wanted to do. But I remained unmoved! They wanted to see me hurt. They wanted my tears to flow. None of that happened. They wanted to see me scared or cower. I never felt as strong as I did. It was not because of my own strength. I knew He was there with me. Sustaining me with His.
The battle hasn’t even begun. I want to thank all of you for your prayers. I cried on my way home, tired after a busy night at work I had weathered. Tired after a scheduled conference right after work that didn’t leave me any room to be prepared. I cried because I wasn’t afraid. I cried because I wasn’t weak.
I cried because I found myself praying the same words He did….
Jesus said, “Father, forgive these people, because they don’t know what they are doing…”
I cried because once, I was like them. I cried because His grace was granted to me. So undeserved. I cried because I knew what ground I was standing on. On the Rock!
They were proud to be in power….but “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.” [Proverbs 16:5]
They favored some….but “in God there is no partiality.” [Acts 10:34-35]
They wanted to plan for someone’s destiny….but they have missed to see the right road [Proverbs 15:22]
They wanted to think that they were doing the right thing…”but it’s only the Lord Who examines their motives.” [Proverbs 16:2]
They thought they had the right answer to this trial….”but only the Lord gives the right answer.” [Proverbs 16:1]
They might scheme whatever they wanted to think….”but it was the Lord Who has made everything for His own purposes.” [Proverbs 16:4]
Lord, thank You for this trial I am in. If this will bring glory to You, it is a privilege to be Your vessel. I pray that through this, people involved will come to know You instead. For them to know Your love, Your mercy, Your grace. Thank You Father for Your children who are praying and interceding for me. I pray that You bless them all the more and especially the ones, who are facing their own life’s storms. Father, please help us to remain strong. But thank You, for without You, we are truly nothing. Thank You for Your faithfulness. Thank You for always making a way when we are stranded in the desert or reach a dead end on a road that we are walking on. Thank You for Your power and might that sustain us. May You be glorified in everything for You alone deserve that. They don't know Lord.....behind this warrior is only a child! Glory be to You Oh Lord! I love You Lord! In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
