In The Lowest Times

Overwhelmed with thousands of cases from employees who brought charges against their employers, I could see that closing my case without truly looking at all the evidences gathered was the easiest route to lessen that lady’s load. I was upset at the beginning knowing that their help was the only help I needed to show how much discrimination and harassment occurred at work from those people who held high positions and were used to doing everything in their own wisdom, even if such actions or words were not right, propelled them to keep repeating such knowing that they could get away with it. 

As soon as I got home after trying to go to this government office, about a little over an hour away, I called my work to verify when I would be scheduled to work. The Charge Nurse at the desk just informed me that another evening shift nurse had quit. He had faced a tough battle, too, I was sure of that. From our supervisors.

Waiting for 2 years, I thought for sure, that I would get that help I was expecting for. And that was what upset me when the lady called me and told me I couldn’t do anything because I accepted the Per Diem position according to my employer. Despite my response that I was given no choice and accepted under duress because otherwise, verbally and written by those people, not accepting the offer would mean termination on my part. I asked her if that was not considered a demotion of my position since I lost all of the benefits a regular job status had. She did not know what to say. She promised she would get back with me. But that promise was replaced with a letter instead that arrived from the mail. 

Case dismissed.

I wasn’t even given a chance to be able to bring it to a federal court. No wonder, no lawyer would pick up. There was a time frame. If I didn’t make it, that was it. I lost this case. Forever.

I wanted to fight. Knowing that no one monitored these people also from the government. But the process was not always easy. It was hard to get an appointment to see the Director. I tried personal visits. Emails. Phone calls…Nothing…I knew my case became just an “statistic”…Among those cases closed.

Over the course of this ‘waiting period’, I gathered my strength from God’s truth. I knew from the beginning how tough the battle would be because of corruption in this world. What powerful people thought of their victories are actually what enslave them. Pride. Power. Their own wisdom and strength. Those can easily be their own bondage. And when entangled, one could easily be trapped.

Only God’s truth protects me. Only God’s truth strengthens me. Only God’s truth gives me hope and helps me rests in peace and joy despite all those tough moments I had to go through, especially when facing such “powerful people”. I never showed I was afraid of them. I only told them about hurtful words. Hurtful. Because they were the truth. To none, they could not respond. To none, they could not give me any facts. To none, they could not hurl anything back. Truth for truth. Because there was no truth in their actions nor words.

If I may seem to quit battling this people, I would never consider it a loss. I felt already I had the victory even from the start. No matter what the outcome was. The process might be painful but this same process had drawn me closer to Jesus. And in Him, there is truth!!! And the word of truth is the water of life. It refreshes one’s soul no matter what it is facing in life...Ahhh… The rivers of grace and of His mercy…Because of them, going through a trial is a must. That’s when the eye of faith is tested. That’s the chance for a soul to prosper. What this world says is not true. That a man’s lowest point is when he’s facing the darkest times of his life. But in God’s eyes, through persecution and those lowest times are the periods when souls can truly prosper and be at their best health.

Yes, with God, our worst things are often our “best things”. For with wicked man’s mercies come unpleasant things but what hidden blessings found in a righteous man’s cross!!!

Yes, I will quit. With this case if it comes. But I will not quit to persevere. 

Because doing so brings me closest...To His cross...That of Jesus'...

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: NLT Bible ]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].