I just saw a little bit of what the Lord was planning for my journey at this point in my life. Sure it wasn’t easy being on hold as some people had put me on a forced leave. But it was a time of rest for me at the same time. It was more time spent with even a better quality with my family. It was also a time of reflection, of evaluating my walk with the Lord. As He placed me in the Correctional setting from the hospital 11 years ago, it was the place where He strengthened me, empowered me, gave me discernment, protected me, and the place where He had shown His faithfulness, grace and love countless times.
Corrections are places filled with many evil spirits. It is a place devoid of God’s Light. If not for His Armor, I would not be able to withstand all the pressures there, physically and much more spiritually. It could be both mentally and physically draining. But by God’s grace, I always overcome. Except this time, I am beginning to see that not only He prepared me for those kinds of unseen battles I dealt with from inmates, but even a bigger one was to come. This time, with my own co-workers who hold high positions. Not one. A few. Against me. But being groomed and nurtured by His power, I was never afraid.
At that time when I had injured my neck from the hospital where I was working for almost 10 years, He replaced my doubts of ever finding another job as a Nurse by quickly answering my deepest cry for another opportunity. That was when He brought me to Corrections. It was a job I had not done. Nevertheless, it proved to be very rewarding and at the same time, helped me grow in my spiritual journey.
Now that these people are discriminating and intimidating me in any way possible hoping that I’m going to resign, I have kept my hopes high and I know the importance of ever drawing nearer to the One Who knows it all and the One Who is my Shield against all these darts being thrown. Each day that should have been filled with frustration is a day filled with thanksgiving instead. Despite the financial strain they want to cause me, He provides. Despite the fear they are trying to instill, He holds my hands and always tells me “I’m here with you.” Despite the lies they hurl, He reassures me, “The truth will prevail.” Despite the acts of seemingly kind and loving gestures, He warns me to be “watchful” for all things put on the table by enemies for they are deceptive.
One thing is for sure, if this door is to close on me, it will never break my heart realizing that it won’t be them capable of doing that, but God’s hands will. That is my prayer at this time, for Him to help me see where He wants me to go.