“The supervisor decided she wouldn’t need you on Friday (today) as she would have 2 other nurses working with her already,” the email read from the person doing our staff’s schedule.
Fridays are usually hectic in the prison. Bins are laden with mountain-high pile of charts where the doctors’ orders need to be transcribed. In between that, inmates come in requesting to be seen where some of them do not follow the process of sick call and just want immediate treatment right away. Even if it is just a minor cold. Sometimes, it’s hard as time is taken away from those who have true emergencies.
It was not the supervisor’s fault. I cancelled my scheduled availability today for PM shift. I just wanted to work from 8pm-12 midnight as they also allow 4 or even 6 hours of work to help out. For personal reason. I wanted some time away from another particular supervisor who got involved with my battle to remain working part time. She should not have a part but she had a history of intimidating other nurses who were either fired or resigned on their own long ago. I wasn’t surprised with the way she rushed to intimidate me also, frighten me and other actions to force me to quit. Except…I never did. Until they got exhausted with their evil plans. I don’t want to see her at this time. I know she might not value the help I give (and the other hard-working nurses, too she intimidated). But one doesn’t realize the value until it becomes lost.
We can’t right all the wrongs. I know I can’t change her. Nor anyone else not only at my workplace but those who surround me. I see people who are so vocal about changing the world. But what’s sad…they don’t see that the change needs to start within themselves. Like me. I used to be proud. Of my accomplishments that I thought I did on my own. Until Jesus found me. He is the One Who alone can transform anyone’s hard heart to be softened and be likened in His ways. Nothing or no one else can.
“26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. 27 And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.” – Ezekiel 36:26, 27 (NIV)
And though it seems true that the supervisor who cancelled my offer of 4 hours of work won’t need my help because she has other nurses, if one of them calls in sick or the day turns out to be very busy, their number won’t be enough to tackle the work load, they usually end up calling me if I am able to go in.
Jesus had offered Himself to help us. To save us from our sins. How quickly we brush Him off and think that we don’t need Him. We get so caught up with the things of this world that we don’t even hear Him calling our hearts to change. We may all differ from our backgrounds: color, culture, beliefs… The truth is…Jesus doesn’t need us….
But we all need Jesus….
“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” – Romans 3:23 (ESV)
It’s not about what a man can do but it is about what was done for him that saves him. Don’t cancel Jesus in your life…
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” – Romans 12:2 (ESV)