Your Love

“I’m sorry for crying, but I just can’t help it. I haven’t been feeling well and I just don’t feel good,” a young, female inmate rapidly stated as she just sat on one of the blue chairs we used for sick call. She was talking so fast that I haven’t even asked her what brought her down to the Clinic. I knew she had a history of anxiety and being bipolar was a possibility according to her records.

Calm down…..Breathe…” I coaxed her.

“Ma’am, I’m sorry but I just don’t feel good and it’s difficult to breathe and tonight, I started coughing and…”

Calm….Down….Take a deep breathDon’t think I’m not listening. I am.”


Breathe! Calm down!

Her lips pursed, I saw her let out a long breath.


To my command, she let out another. Seeing her more relaxed, I asked, “Do you think you need to see someone from the Mental Health Services? Are you feeling more anxious? Though I know that you were seen before but at that time, you told them that you were okay. It looks like you have a cold. And if you cry, it will make it more difficult for you to breathe. So, try to relax, okay?”

In a much slower rhythm, she replied, “I’m fine, Ma’am. I don’t think I need to see any from Psych. I do have history of asthma.”

“I saw that. I’m just waiting for you to calm down. I’m gonna’ take your temperature and other things and depending on what I hear from your lungs, I might give you an inhaler.”

“Thank you.”

"Try to relax, get a lot of rest if you can and drink lots of fluids as long as you’re not nauseous," I reminded her as I gave her yellow pass after giving the medications to help her with her symptoms.

Oh, how true it is in this life that even smaller things can overwhelm us and seem to choke us when we feel so inadequate in overcoming trials. It’s just hard to breathe. These things that choke us sometimes weaken our faith more and make us forget that God can do amazing things. But no matter what we feel and no matter how impossible the circumstances we are fighting, it doesn’t mean that God is not paying attention to us anymore.

“Be still…” He always reminds us.

“"I the LORD do not change. So you, O descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed.” (Malachi 3:6 – NIV)

He is God of love. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. So, His faithful love doesn’t change.

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For this special day, may we remember the Author of Love.

“16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” – (Ephesians 3:16-19-NIV)

This was a song the Lord had given me on Nov.25, 2004 then He gave me the second part on June 20, 2007…(We will find him if we seek Him and look for Him with all our hearts)…

Your Love, Oh Lord

I can never understand the way You love every man
On the cross You died and You called us friends
I can never comprehend Your sacrifice and all the pains
Even on the cross, You welcomed us with open arms


(That) Your love is wide…..wider than what my eyes can see
Your love is long…it endures for all eternity
Your love is high….higher than the skies and the heavens
Your love is deep…deeper than the rivers and the seas

Your love oh Lord…

Help me be like You in all of my ways
Dwell in my heart, only in You I have faith
I wanna’ be rooted only in Your love
So I can begin to understand…

(Repeat Chorus)..

Your love, oh Lord…(Your love is wide)
Your love, oh Lord…(Your love is long)
Your love, oh Lord…(Your love is high)
Your love, oh Lord…(Your love is deep)

~rcubes 11/25/04

Happy Love Day to all of you and may God bless you all! Thank you for your friendships, sweet thoughts and prayers. It will be a long battle I'm facing in the coming days ahead, but I want to be still and know that it is the Lord's battle, not mine. Love to all of you.
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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

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We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].