I will Never

When my father had gotten so ill since being diagnosed with colon cancer back in 2007, my brothers and I were stuck with wanting to help him financially versus going home to see him. Back home, they don't have medical insurance like we do here in America. So, everyday, though expensive to be hospitalized, of course, we wanted all the best comfort my father could have physically. When he knew that he wasn't improving, he opted to go home and remain in our house. I agreed. This was one of the situation that being a nurse helped yet, at the same time, having that knowledge was causing me too much pain, knowing how much suffering my father was in, physically. During the last few weeks of him with remaining strength, 3 brothers of mine from Europe and I decided it was best to visit him while he was still here with us. We knew then that would be the last time we might have with him. I wasn't afraid. But what would I do, I didn't have extra money to go home? I didn't have enough leave at work. I silently prayed. With tears, I gave everything to the Lord. I knew in my heart, if He meant for my brothers and I to be with my earthly father, then, there would be a way. My husband was trying over that weekend to get me a ticket. To no luck! But who said "it's impossible with God?" I trusted in the Lord and I knew, whether I would be able to go home or not, I had the comfort that my father had opened his heart to the Lord's gift of salvation. That was what mattered to me...

I got a call Saturday that he wasn't looking well. Sunday morning, so tired coming from a busy night's shift at work, my husband shouted with joy as he was able to buy me the last ticket. But where would I get my pocket money? We applied for a loan via online with our bank. Within 15 minutes, the loan was approved [in which the Lord had provided for me to be able to pay it off in a very short time]. At work, my supervisor was very supportive of giving me all the time I needed for the trip despite the short notice.

The following day, Monday night, I was bound to the airport to go home for a 13 hour flight. Wow! There was no traffic which was weird knowing the roads were usually jammed going to Los Angeles International Airport. Reaching the counter way early, the lady told me we would be in our destination at 5:30 am. I told her, you must have a mistake. That was only the time of arrival where we were supposed to have a stop-over. She replied, "Ma'am. For the first time, we decided to fly non-stop again starting with this flight that you're in." Was it good luck? No!!! It was "divine intervention." Everything was a blessing from the Lord when He willed something. Of course, it was a great reunion with my father. Together with my brothers, we had created more memories, though bittersweet, we knew they would be in our hearts forever.

Why am I writing about this? It's because I want to thank the Lord and tell you, how important it is for us to continue to trust in the Lord, no matter what circumstances we're in. Some things we don't understand but the Lord knows it all. If our prayers are answered, thank Him. If our prayers are not answered, thank Him still! Because He knows what's best for us. If our prayers are taking a while, still thank Him despite the long wait, because there is always a great reason for that. Everything happens in His perfect time. The Lord is good! And He loves us all! Do you love Him? Do you know Him? If you don't. you're missing so much in this lifetime, walking everyday without the Lord is like being lost in that valley.

I wrote this song on 1/17/07 to thank the Lord for His goodness.

I Will Never

I will never be lost
For You always make a way
You give me light and You guide
My dark and wrong ways

I will never be afraid
For You're always by my side
You hold my hand and draw me close
Nearer to You

Someday, I will understand
All the things will be clear for me
As I live for now, all I know
Is that I must....trust in no one but You

I will never die again
Because You gave Your life on the cross
You welcomed me with open arms
And called me Your friend

I will never understand
The kind of love that You have shown
I received Your gift of grace
Because of Jesus

Someday, I will understand
All the things will be clear to me
As I live for now, all I know
Is that I must..trust in no one but You

Is that I must...[I will never]...trust in no one.....but You...
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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: NLT Bible ]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].