“Ahh…Make her work for only 90 days and if there’s nothing available, we’ll see from then,” responded the one who also has power in another department of the Sheriff’s.
“I’ll be blunt with you,” chorused the other, as I looked at her eye to eye the whole time, with her moving her head away from my penetrating stare, “It’s hard to find another spot where we can place you. So…maybe you should start looking at other options…”
I saw that grin from the Nurse Supervisor from the corner of my eyes. I knew this was what she wanted to happen from the moment she heard about my case. I got up and thanked all of them. My strides and desire to leave that room was urgent. I felt suffocated from all of their derision I felt was going on as soon as I left. They loved to punish. But they would never see the way I saw things now. Under His light, I didn’t see it that way.
“The Lord is God, shining upon us. Bring forward the sacrifice and put it on the altar.” –Psalm 118:27
And how I wanted to be this “sacrifice”. On the brazen altar. For I was once like them…Who saw this light…The Light of the world…And made those who were darkness light. The darkness of ignorance and unbelief….That's where I was before...
Oh Lord, when they thought they are in control of someone’s fate, they are wrong. They don’t know Who truly has the control of everyone’s lives. Lord, may I be a pleasing sacrifice to You and through this trial, may they see Your light that You had given me. Lord, thank You for what You had done to save us. That You sacrificed Your own life, suffered humiliation though You didn’t deserve that. With those who hated You thinking that they punished You, not realizing that You had given Your own life to conquer death and show Your holiness.
Lord, I want to be bound and be that sacrifice on the brazen altar. I pray that it will make these hateful people know Your love and grace as they think they have the hold on my fate. And in the fire, remove those impurities in me. Thank You Jesus for Your redemption. Thank You for everything You have given us. Your Love. Your grace. Your mercy. Because of You, I am rejoicing though facing this trial. I want to praise Your Holy Name. Write a new song in my heart oh Lord. Because of You, I will rejoice and be glad. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.
“The stone rejected by the builders has now become the cornerstone.
This is the Lord’s doing,
And it is marvelous to see.
This is the day the Lord has made.
We will rejoice and be glad in it.”
~ Psalm 118:22-24 (emphasis is mine)