Pursue The Highest Goal

“Let love be your highest goal!” (1 Corinthians 14:1; NLT)

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Staring at the unused Scrubs uniforms in the closet, I opted for my favorite black one. I knew I had to clean my transparent small bag I toted with me to work. Tomorrow would be my first day back after being put on a forced leave. My heart has been feeling heavy as I smelled the usual dread. It was not the work that was difficult. It was the people I worked with.

I can't lie. I miss seeing manipulative inmates who can fake any physical symptoms known just to acquire more potent pain medications and other narcotics they are known to abuse outside the prison walls. I miss hearing and trying to discern suicidal statements and intentions if they are real or woven just to avoid other predators harassing them in their units and cells. I miss administering as simple as a piece of orange to a conscious diabetic, to starting intravenous line and giving high sugar kind of medication through that to an unconscious one whose blood sugar level could be fatal. I miss assessing someone having seizure and determining if it is a  life-threatening type or not.

But I never missed:

~ Gossiping that can spread like a wild fire
~ Intimidation from others who always think they are better than the rest
~Harassment arising from statements and even flirtatious acts with sexual innuendos
~Rejection towards those who do not belong to their circle or group
~Caring statements that contradict the actions. In other words, “being hypocrites”…
~ Lies that can deceive any one to believe them, forgetting that there are always 2 sides to a story
~Offered wisdom that in true sense, does not contain any knowledge

“Pursue love…” That’s what the Lord had been telling me since yesterday and this morning as I had been breathing heavily, venting out to my husband that I truly did not feel like going back anymore. My joy to be a Correctional Nurse would always be there, but because of the discrimination from people in higher positions made me feel it would be easy if I would not see their faces. Not that I was scared. I could say I was tired of their plots because it had been going on even prior to them dealing with me and many nurses had quit from the past.

The battle I thought would be so hard against these people turned to be a “piece of cake” because none of their accusations against me were true. But what I did not expect, there was another battle that would be harder to be in. It was a war in my spirit.

When I wanted to be angry, the Lord would often remind me to “be slow in doing so.”

When I heard some of them were getting into troubles, I wanted to say, “Good! They deserved that!” only to be warned right away that “it was not the right thing to think nor say.”

When I wanted to pay evil for evil, He said the right way was to pay evil “with good.”

How could I pursue love and let it be my highest goal? How could I love others who hurt me?

Again, I looked into myself and I got the quick response deep within!

“Mercy…” God had shown me mercy…because it’s just natural for Him and not for me.

It was given not for me to keep but to let it flow to those who needed it.

With mercy, comes along LOVE. Love that sees beyond faults and sees what can become. Love that sees enemies through God’s eyes and emits compassion and forgiveness, instead of revenge or grudge.

“Pursue love…”  for God is love…

“Pursue God…” (the Highest Goal)

Captivate Us (Watermark)

Your face is beautiful
And Your eyes are like the stars
Your gentle hands have healing
There inside the scars
Your loving arms they draw me near
And Your smile it brings me peace
Draw me closer oh my Lord
Draw me closer Lord to Thee

Captivate us, Lord Jesus
Set our eyes on You
Devastate us with Your presence
Falling down
And rushing river, draw us nearer
Holy fountain consume us with You
Captivate us Lord Jesus, with You

Your voice is powerful
And Your words are radiant bright
In Your breath and shadow
I will come close and abide
You whisper love and life divine
And Your fellowship is free
Draw me closer O my Lord
Draw me closer Lord to Thee


Let everything be lost in the shadows
Of the light of Your face
Let every chain be broken from me
As I’m bound in Your grace
For Your yoke is easy, Your burden is light
You’re full of wisdom, power and might
And every eye will see You


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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: NLT Bible ]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].