The Tough Day

I knew she would always make it through…

I’m talking about my “best friend”…She always faces a lot on her plate. Daily. She wonders why such trials don’t let up. I can’t answer myself. For even me wonder. All I know is that when God found me, He taught me how the truth comes from Him. Despite adversities, He promised He is always there with us. Going through tough times. Why bad things happen to people, I am limited to such knowledge. But I believe that because this world is not God’s place, anyone can try to see the “positive” through those negatives. He wants us to trust and rely on Him. Trials make us vulnerable and make us feel defeated many times. Trials make us realize we are very limited to what we know and what we are capable of. 

“How can you be so sure?” she asked as I felt my throat formed a lump after I reassured her that nothing would go wrong that morning that she was supposed to have a surgical procedure.

“Just because…” my mind grasping for easier answers she could understand. Not from me…But from Him…since I was also limited.

“Because God promised His love and faithfulness to those who love Him. I know you love Him. But you need to also trust Him…” I replied.

Well…she was right…They ended up cancelling her procedure after her stress brought some changes in her EKG. The doctor wanted her cleared by the Cardiologist. That instant, she had no option but to go for an angiogram. For the doctor to see her heart through a catheter they had to put through her artery on her right wrist. 

With no family around but just a trusted friend which was “me”, she requested the Cardiologists to leave us alone.

Her tears flowed…Suffering for over a week to have a cyst removed, she had already endured so much pain and the anticipated surgery that would bring some relief was cancelled. Understandably, she was upset.

“What else could go wrong, Rcubes?” she looked me in the eye. 

“I can’t believe this is happening…”

I rubbed her left shin…Trying to comfort her…But no words dared to come out of my mouth. I knew…I was limited…Until some did form in my mind…Because I asked for His help…To comfort her. To reassure her. For Him to give her the needed strength…

He is the Best Comforter after all…

“I know you have suffered for so long…But consider that, even though we know that stress can do that, they just want to be on the safe side. Hang in there some more…I know you are tough. You can tough it out the way you did it many, many times…”

Her tears continued to flow as I felt my heart silently breaking. Feeling her pain. Feeling her struggles since over the decade of knowing her. 

I missed her smiles. I had not seen those in a very long time. How can someone smile while facing adversities?

“Part the waters, Lord” I softly prayed as I continued to rub her left shin. Trying to comfort her the best I could…

“Don’t let her drown…on such waves…For I know You are quick to reach out Your right hand and save her…I know that…because of what You have done for us…I believe that because I know You are the true God.” I ended as I tried not to join her tears with mine. I wanted to be strong. At least, for her at that moment.

The few hours procedure turned to the night. As I lingered between going to the unit and the designated waiting area while she had the angiogram. People at the hospital knew we were good friends by then. The nurses kept thanking me for being there to support her. They didn’t know I was grateful to be able to do that for her.

 Because she is a good person…Often, I caution her how she neglects her own health just to care for her family. I know the way she treats her patients at the hospital. She is not only a good nurse but truly a good advocate for their needs. But I’m sad…because now she is the patient. 

And how I prayed that she would be treated the way she worked in the hospital. With kindness. With understanding. With dignity. With respect…Because she deserved that. Not only because of her good heart but because her smiles hid the struggles she faced and continue to face.

The clock seemed to have been frozen as I tried to swallow the ham and cheese sandwich I got from the vending machine. I felt it was stuck in my throat. Bite after bite. Not finishing it, the pager the nurse gave me lit up on my lap. The procedure was over. She requested for me to be there. With her. When she returned.

She looked so tired by then. Her pain slightly diminished as they gave her some IV sedation. The cardiologists came and facing them as my friend laid on the guerney, they explained how beautiful her heart was. That she was cleared for her surgery. 

I couldn’t help but butt in.

“That was only the literal meaning you had explained…” the doctors both looked up and grew silent as they allowed me to speak.

“I’m sorry to interrupt you both. But I just want to tell you figuratively, she does have a ‘beautiful’ heart.”

None of them knew what to say. They didn’t get me at first. Until the more experienced Cardiologist got it. They agreed with me. 

But I didn’t need that. I knew that. And I wanted to make a statement for her. 

A lesson learned for me that day. To not believe that all smiles I meet and see daily in my path does not mean that person is happy. For some smiles hide the struggles they are going through. For me, it helps to realize that just one…Even one act of kindness might help that person. It shouldn’t be hard…Because sometimes, it’s just equivalent to a minute as I tie my shoes or brush my teeth or comb my hair. But one thing is sure…

This world is hurting…No wonder…Jesus commands for us to love Him first then love others…

Yes…Even our enemies…

May I ask for your prayers friends for her to have a quick recovery. For the Lord to provide her strength and comfort and all of her needs. Thank you.
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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

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We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].