Only A Child

I saw their smirk on the corners of my eyes. I felt the heat of being mocked. Not by these human faces I was facing behind a closed door meeting. They felt good thinking that I had no defense at all with what they wanted to say. With what they wanted to do. But I remained unmoved!  They wanted to see me hurt. They wanted my tears to flow. None of that happened. They wanted to see me scared or cower. I never felt as strong as I did. It was not because of my own strength. I knew He was there with me. Sustaining me with His.

The battle hasn’t even begun. I want to thank all of you for your prayers. I cried on my way home, tired after a busy night at work I had weathered. Tired after a scheduled conference right after work that didn’t leave me any room to be prepared. I cried because I wasn’t afraid. I cried because I wasn’t weak.

I cried because I found myself praying the same words He did….

Jesus said, “Father, forgive these people, because they don’t know what they are doing…”

I cried because once, I was like them. I cried because His grace was granted to me. So undeserved. I cried because I knew what ground I was standing on. On the Rock!

They were proud to be in power….but “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.” [Proverbs 16:5]

They favored some….but “in God there is no partiality.” [Acts 10:34-35]

They wanted to plan for someone’s destiny….but they have missed to see the right road [Proverbs 15:22]

They wanted to think that they were doing the right thing…”but it’s only the Lord Who examines their motives.” [Proverbs 16:2]

They thought they had the right answer to this trial….”but only the Lord gives the right answer.” [Proverbs 16:1]

They might scheme whatever they wanted to think….”but it was the Lord Who has made everything for His own purposes.”  [Proverbs 16:4]

Lord, thank You for this trial I am in. If this will bring glory to You, it is a privilege to be Your vessel. I pray that through this, people involved will come to know You instead. For them to know Your love, Your mercy, Your grace. Thank You Father for Your children who are praying and interceding for me. I pray that You bless them all the more and especially the ones, who are facing their own life’s storms. Father, please help us to remain strong. But thank You, for without You, we are truly nothing. Thank You for Your faithfulness. Thank You for always making a way when we are stranded in the desert or reach a dead end on a road that we are walking on. Thank You for Your power and might that sustain us. May You be glorified in everything for You alone deserve that. They don't know Lord.....behind this warrior is only a child! Glory be to You Oh Lord!  I love You Lord! In Jesus’ Name. Amen.


  1. Sis, I am here, loving you, and lifting you in prayer. Please email me if you need to vent, or anything. My email address is

  2. Continuing to pray for you Sis during this tough time in your life. You're never stronger than when you're on your knees. You're going to make it!


  3. Praying for you always. I hope things work out for the best. Sometimes your best is all you can do,and all you need to do! Hang in there God is on your side. Blessings jane

  4. 'the warrior is a child...' but the Saviour never changes. Keep standing strong. He is your defense...He is fighting for you. Close your ears to everything except Him....He won't let you down...not now or ever. He promised....Praying for you weapon formed against you will or can prosper but He lets us go through stuff and if the doors close....know that He has closed them. Stay strong okay

  5. You are never alone.
    From far away, His Spirit promps prayer
    Just for You
    Just as you need it.

    And it is always done, according to His Will.

    "Pray for My Rosel NOW", He insists.

    Though deaf to the sounds of man, the voice of God is clear and loud, able to reach inside and say "My Rosel has free will".
    "She needs Me; interceding prayer trumps her free will. Will YOU intercede that I may act, and trump her free will now?"

    A resounding "Yes" is heard in heaven from the East Coast to the West Coast. He acts.

    Daniel prayed three weeks.
    Reinforcements were needed, for resistance was great. But the message from God was simple:
    "Your prayer was answered on the first day".

    Blocked prayer is being reinforced anew.
    His answer for YOU Rosel, was made on the first day of prayer.
    Weeks of prayer continue, and continue, until the answer arrives to you.

    And it will be awesome!
    He always does that for those whom He loves.
    THAT....would be you.

    You are never alone.

    God be with ye!

    Denise is correct.
    Should you need a jot and tittle alone, will respond.

    Matt 5:18 "For assuredly, I say to you, till heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means pass from the law till all is fulfilled."

    In other words, the BEST, is yet to come.

  6. Rosel,
    I know it seems like an odd time to request this but would you please come to my blog and read my latest post called "no words to describe". I want you to come and see what it was that you were praying me through for the last year. You had such an impact on my life and I dont want you to reason that statement away at all. God always wins. Love to you!

  7. Exodus 10:1 Then the Lord said to Moses, “Go in to Pharaoh, for I have hardened his heart and the heart of his servants, that I may show these signs of mine among them, 2 and that you may tell in the hearing of your son and of your grandson how I have dealt harshly with the Egyptians and what signs I have done among them, that you may know that I am the Lord.” Take comfort in the fact that our God is just as much in control of sinners as He is of us who believe. He is always in control so that He can display His glory. When God hardens the sinners in your world, it’s giving Him an opportunity to show you His power in our weakness.

    Exodus 5:22 Then Moses turned to the Lord and said, “O Lord, why have you done evil to this people? Why did you ever send me? 23 For since I came to Pharaoh to speak in your name, he has done evil to this people, and you have not delivered your people at all.” Because of the rebellion, there is no salvation apart from suffering. That was true in Exodus in Egypt and it was true in the Gospels in Jerusalem at Calvary. It is also true in our lives. In a broken world there is no salvation without suffering. Let this fact help us understand how to interpret the evil God brings our way. Evil in our life is not a sign that God has abandoned us; it’s the opposite!

  8. Dear Rosel,
    Psalm 18 is God's word for you today.

    I am lifting you up... you are not alone in this battle.


  9. Praying for you sister. May the Lord open a door, or even a window of opportunity as you work through this trial with Him, carried in God's hand. I see you standing strong on John 10:27-30. I pray that God would open the eyes of the spiritually blind that they may find a "saving" faith in Jesus that will transform their hearts.


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~ Martin Luther King, Jr.

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himseld and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: Life Application Bible]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].