I struggle for many years. I’m talking about
relationships, be it with my own family, friends or others. I sense when
someone isn’t honest with their own feelings, I get bothered by it. Then I tend
to shy away from those relationships because I feel that no matter what I do or
say, our relationship is just…inauthentic! I'm not afraid to say what I feel from my heart even though it will hurt the other. In the same process, I don't know if I'm grieving the Lord that way. When or when not to...is also a struggle.
I don’t want it. I feel it is also a
trap that when I enter, it will hold me captive in a cycle of pleasing,
praising, even if the words are not coming from true intentions. It makes me
sad. Those kind of relationships are just superficial. At the same time, I pray
for the Lord to also search my heart and help me always have true intentions
when interacting with anyone.
Lord, for many years, you know what’s in my heart. I
tend to stay away from unreal relationships because of me not wanting to get
hurt and wanting to have meaningful relationships. Help me Lord to overcome any of these struggles in dealing with my
family, friends or anyone who crosses my path. I know that I’m limited but with
You, I can do anything. Thank You Lord for making Your grace and forgiveness
known to me. Continue to mold me to be like Jesus. Each day. In Jesus’ Name.
Amen
