“How could this be?” I thought to myself as I kept clicking the mouse, trying to find something I could do from some lists in the computer monitor while being on a leave. I don’t like to waste time. I want to be productive.
Sadness pierced my wounded heart. All I wanted was to perform my job every night (for 11 years) I was scheduled to work, without complaining, helping others if needed. While some lulled into light sleep or just not picked up anything to help the whole crew out.
I was the one being punished even if I didn’t do anything wrong but to place a needed request since the schedules for night nurses was changed by a new manager. I tumbled but by God’s grace, my feet were not caught by many snares placed in my path. Traps that were set up by people who held higher positions and were determined to destroy my hope.
I am tired. I want to fight but there are times doubt creeps in. Doubt that I can ever overcome because the process is just too long. Deep inside, I know that thinking is a lie. A big lie. I know that I am being taught to persevere. To endure. To remain trusting. After all, if we know the truth, there is no reason to explain it. We just go for it and never oppose it. His Word. True promises that in His perfect time will help me rise above this difficulty I’m in. God, please help me endure.
“But those who wait on the Lord will find new strength. They will fly high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” – Isaiah 40:31 (NLT)
I will stand at my watch
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I will look to see what he will say to me,
and what answer I am to give to this complaint.
Then the LORD replied:
“Write down the revelation
and make it plain on tablets
so that a herald[b] may run with it.
For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come
and will not delay.
Habakkuk 2:1-4
Wait for the vision. You are being placed in a crucible of waiting but he will not tarry, he will not delay.
I am praying for you.
Love
Lidj
Dear one I do not believe it is by accident that I read your blog especially at this time. I gain strength from what you are going through presently (ahead of me), which hopefully will give me insight to my change of boss situation. Hopefully I will take in, tomorrow morning, when I sit down with new and old boss to discuss my responsibilities. I can tell you one thing, sleep is hard to come by for me these past couple of nights. Awful hard to rest in the Lord. But, at least I am conscience of Him! All I can do is try and that is all He asks of us. Thank you Rosel for your encouragment and your words of strength in your trial. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteOh dear, dear Rosel, what an arduous struggle this has been! Regardless of how you feel, those of us looking on see strength & immense faith. You are a powerful woman and so very capable of running the length of this race set before you. I've no doubt about it, because I've no doubt about the God you love, and that loves you! That always comes through in your posts (and His).
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Kathleen
I'm praying for wisdom and strength to endure for you, Dear. Also I pray for peace, as God is on your side and fights for you. That is a beautiful video. Blessings and Hugs ~
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