The Untamed

Spilling everything with tears over the phone to this particular supervisor, she was silent at the other end of the line. She never interrupted me as I related the hurtful words delivered in front of my face by the medical examiner, as I was being evaluated for my injury that happened years ago.

“Don’t worry about it,” she finally cut-off.

“Just give me the medical note from your doctor,” she added.

The same heart which listened compassionately that day was the same heart that sat next to me and demanded for me to give another medical note, when it was clear that my injury was permanent. The same mouth which uttered the words that sounded like encouraging was the same mouth delivering the message of her intention to end my career.

The words were: “I would be off-duty” starting April 25, 2011.

To her, her statement was ended with a period. But on my part, her statement was ended with a question mark. In God’s perfect time, she and others would need to answer. Not only with their mouths. But to show the true intentions of their hearts. To bring all the hidden lies under His Light.

The small of an organ...yet so hard to tame...

“Whoever keeps his mouth and his tongue keeps himself out of trouble.” – Proverbs 21:23 (ESV)

“Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.” – Ephesians 4:29 (ESV)

“Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking deceit.” –Psalm 34:13 (ESV)

“For we all stumble in many ways. And if anyone does not stumble in what he says, he is a perfect man, able also to bridle his whole body. If we put bits into the mouths of horses so that they obey us, we guide their whole bodies as well. Look at the ships also: though they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are guided by a very small rudder wherever the will of the pilot directs. So also the tongue is a small member, yet it boasts of great things. How great a forest is set ablaze by such a small fire! And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell.”
– James 3:2-10(ESV)

“From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so.”
- James 3:10 (ESV)

There is Someone from the beginning Who has never failed to encourage all of us. And it is His Words that I'm clinging to.


  1. The law changes in 2014 under what is called 'Obamacare". "Pre-existing" conditions will NOT be allowed to be taken in account with respect to insurance.

    Thus, one with MS and the expensive drugs needed to cope, will be perceived as a "person", not a medical liability.

    The law has been passed; it is in effect in another three years (oddly).

    Many employers are jettisoning any risk they hold now, and eliminating high medical cost employees. Older employees are having major trouble getting jobs, as they are inclined to be in the subset of "pre-existing" conditions of varied sort.

    Your ability to do the job, and indeed, exceed performance, is without question.
    Your legal status and cost as an employee with pre-existing condition seems to be rearing its head here.

    Some employees have work protection, some are "at will" and may be dismissed with NO CAUSE or REASON required. It is getting tougher in the marketplace of skills and jobs.

    But I have never known God to abandon those who hold his hand, with the sole exception of His Son on the Cross, for filling HIS hands with our be purged first.

    Hang ON!

    "The LORD your God is with you,
    the Mighty Warrior who saves.
    He will take great delight in you;
    in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
    but will rejoice over you with singing.”
    ~~~Zephaniah 3:17

    In a time of great trouble, and need for deliverance, a young woman called me (I could hear before) and said this verse.

    But she changed EVERY reference to "you", and replaced it with my personal name and sang it.

    The LORD your God is with Rosel,
    the Mighty Warrior who saves.
    He will take great delight in Rosel;
    in his love he will no longer rebuke Rosel,
    but will rejoice over Rosel with singing.”

    Please imagine the Lord Jesus Christ SINGING over you, using your name in His song.
    For that is precisely what is going on.

  2. @Wanda: A sincere "thank you!" God bless.

  3. @ Keystone: His comforting...Thank you also. I have no doubt, this is happening not only to refine me...but I can't wait when His glory is revealed in all of this. To Him be the glory forever and ever...I'm only His shadow...Glory be to the Light...God bless and thank you for your "prayers"...

  4. Yes indeed, Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a guide unto my path.

    Your post is quiet and gentle, full of trust.


  5. @ Sister Lidj: You have been by my side since this battle started, along with many friends here/bros/sisters/ in Christ who are praying along side with me. If you sense my complete trust in the Lord, it is because I know He is "everything that we need". To Him be the glory forever and ever.
    This morning, I was crying as I worshiped Him with my guitar. It was because the fact that without Him, I knew I would not have this hope and that my heart would be full of fear and worries if He didn't give His Word that lasts forever.
    God bless sister and love to you.

  6. @sister Jenjen: Thank you to you. God bless.


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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himseld and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: Life Application Bible]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].