Learning To Wait

“Teach me your way, LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.

Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
spouting malicious accusations.
I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
~ Psalm 27:11-14 (NIV)

This week is the beginning of a waiting process as I anticipate the start of my silent defense. I just know that if God is taking away something good, then, He must have planned something better for me. If He is calling me to suffer, it is not because He wants me to suffer but to learn to endure. If some things are being taken away, these things of the world are better replaced with those things that have eternal gain.

The way He took me from what I was comfortable doing at the hospital after working almost 10 years there, and He placed me in the darker walls, only had me learn to have more faith and become obedient. It seemed tougher. It seemed scary. It seemed a hard challenge. But it wasn’t.

In the prison, I learned to grow more spiritually. I learned to rely more on His weapons and His strength. Despite the neck injury I sustained working at the hospital, my pain was lessened. Financially, He gave me more and He rescued me from the debts that mounted after those many days of not being able to work in the hospital because of my severe pain.

I had to wait during that transition from being an Orthopedic Nurse to a Correctional Nurse. I had to learn patience. I had to trust more and rely more on God’s perfect timing, not mine. True enough, He refreshed me. He renewed me. He strengthened me.

As I face a tough battle now, I know that whatever happens, it’s because He already planned ahead. In this long process, I know I have to learn to be patient again. Someday, I know it would be worth it. God already granted His children His victory. And in that, I will rejoice.

Thank you for all of your loving comments, continued prayers and encouragement. God bless you all.


  1. Amazing post... for I myself had just written about the moment to speak, and the moment to keep silent.

    Silence is an important spiritual warfare weapon.

    You will know when the time comes to shout.

    God is giving you wisdom and discernment.

    I stand amazed at the words God speaks in our lives.

    Be blessed.

    Keeping you close,

  2. Time to keep silent and a time to shout!!! I am trying to learn to shot now my friend.

  3. I just read back over your past three posts. I sense a real stretching, Rosel. I also sense a surrendered, elastic spirit.

    I can hardly wait to see where this silent journey leads. It is bound to be a spacious & abundant place, and a great gift.


  4. I know everything is going to be alright, you great woman of faith! I look forward to hearing all about your new assignment from our Heavenly Father which I imagine will bring Him glory and honor. I don't like the "middle" place either! It's not comfortable. Be encouraged, dear one, we are in this together. And we wait for Him.


  5. Boy is it hard to wait sometimes,

  6. Rosel, you are in my thoughts and prayers as I read your posts. May God strengthen you and give you peace. Remember, whenever trouble comes your way, let it be an opportunity for joy. For when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be strong in character and ready for anything. James 1:2-4. Lifting you up, dearest sister. Please help me pray for a little Kenyan boy who is undergoing treatment in hospital (see my recent posts if you wish) Blessings Jo

  7. Love

    These are the Fruit of the Spirit from Galatians 5:22. I have always found it ironic that Self-Control is listed last, for you would think we need it earlier, in order to gain all the Fruit.

    But of the nine Fruit, I assure you, the one most difficult in the process is ... PATIENCE.

    You have to be like Job in order to obtain this Fruit. It is delivered over an incredibly long period of time. Why?
    The Gift of Patience becomes Fruit of the Spirit over lengthy time!

    It was my hardest one to obtain.
    And there is no easy route or way.

    But once you have tasted Patience, you look back and KNOW, that you can now serve the Lord forever, patiently.
    His arms are around you.
    His smile at your walk is ear to ear.

    Mine too. :-D

  8. Great post as always.

    I loved the picture at the top about the 'growing in the darkness' analogy. I may borrow that. LOL

  9. "God has already planned ahead" - so true. "Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." I would not want to walk one step further today or tomorrow without believing that "God has already planned ahead." Little winds are not hard to withstand and maintain a joyful spirit. It's these large winds that really take it out of you. Keep believing sweet sister! I'll believe with you:)


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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: NLT Bible ]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].