Appreciating Flaws

Philippians 4:8
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” (ESV)

“How can such a beautiful place look so good outside and deep inside is dark and scary?” that thought lingered as I drove away from my scheduled interview 11 years ago.

“Do you have any question?” the interviewing Nurse Manager asked me.

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“Only one,” I confidently stated.

“Your place looks so nice with the palm trees around and green lawn and beautiful flowers all over. But coming from the hospital, I haven’t truly been in, in any prison kind of work so I want to see how it’s like inside, if I may?”

“Oh…”with a surprised look she says, “No one had ever requested that. That was a good thing to ask. Some of the nurses who had come here for job interviews were so confident and was so positive at first, then after just working a few days, turned out they all wanted to quit.”

My request was granted. Someone from the Infirmary downstairs had volunteered to give me that tour in that precious few minutes of break she had amidst the mountain of paper works she dealt with daily. I immediately felt suffocated as we both descended downstairs that led to the prison units, including the Clinic and other offices vital to the prison’s needs. She brought me to Intake where heavy metal doors were slammed shut as different arrestees from all walks of life arrived and were to be processed. Funny smell arose from bodies reeking with alcohol and other unknown substances. The more the air became stale.

Sick inmates were lined up, some being yelled at for losing patience, as they waited to be called, one by one, to be seen by either nurses or the jail doctor. I saw darkness amidst the fluorescent light illuminating the whole facility. It felt being buried down there. It was suffocating, as if we were deprived of fresh air to breathe. The mixture of silence and noises at times were deafening.

“Thank you,” I told the Nurse Manager after my brief tour.

“I didn’t expect what to see but I think I will try to learn whatever I need to learn in your facility and just give my best.”

“No, thank you!”

“You had given me that idea to give applicants a chance to see this place and what truly goes on here, day after day.”

I took a deep breath as I hungered for a fresher air as I step a little lower on my gas pedal. Looking at the rear view mirror, I saw the palm trees dancing with the wind. The tan paint coated the outside walls and made the building appeared clean. The grass appeared greener as the sun's rays shone on them. I smiled as I saw some of the sunlight penetrated those tiny windows in the tiny cells. I knew I would be okay to work in that place.

We all face a war that rages deep inside ourselves daily. It is the war to make the decisions, whether good or bad, we need to choose. We are all flawed. We all have imperfections. We all can choose to see the “best” amidst all these imperfections. We can choose to see the “good” out of the “bad.” The way God sees humanity. He knows all of our imperfections and because of love as His nature, He chooses to give us the best despite our flawed nature. Sometimes, no one knows....It is in those flaws and little blessings that may turn out to be the biggest in someone's journey.


  1. You are such a terrific person doing the work that you do. I just think you have to rely on the Lord and do it. That is for any situation in this difficult life. You do an amazing job using respect and kindness towards others who might not get that treatment from others. Blessings to you.

  2. Trusting and obeying. Very hard things to do. Rosel, you are such an encouragement to many. Blessings and hugs to you dear one.

  3. I have seen this video before, I just can't recall where. Probably also at your blog. ANd like before it brought tears to my eyes again. Because what she said is so true. Today is my birthday and just a few days ago, even up to yesterday, there was a deep sadness in my heart, for I missed Ernie so much. The grieving doesn't really end.

    Seeing this video was so timely for me.

    It is easy to expect things to be perfect, but while in this world, the imperfect can hold an important message... it is what makes us so human, it is what makes us admit our need for God.

    Your post is so deep, Rosel. Thank you for the inspiration that I got from visiting your blog today.


  4. Pregnant little moments that end in the delivery of a choice, or a decision. I wonder how many of them we recognize?

    Oh how we need wisdom at these times. I could sure see it in your interview as well as it's aftermath - - flaws and all!

  5. A great message indeed to encourage acceptance amidst perfections. I'm still praying.


  6. It was a couple of decades ago. Time to begin dating again. My girls were small yet, but on nights off, a date was preferred to being alone.
    Being alone is like building a brick wall, adding one brick each time you are alone. Soon you are sealed off from all.

    I thought I had chosen wisely.
    Her kids blended well with my kids.
    And, I have a long established habit of matching a gal to a particular flower.
    I told her she was a Lily of The Valley when the topic arose. Very fragrant, humble, pleasing.

    We discussed the Bible; another plus.
    Of course two decades ago, I could hear well.

    "What did you tell me your favorite Bible verse was this afternoon?", she queried of me one day.

    "Philippians 4:8" I replied....perplexed.

    Christmas came and she was giddy with excitement for me to open a particular gift.
    I shredded the wrapping and there was my favorite Bible verse, framed 2 feet by 3 feet, and triple matted, now hanging on a wall about 6 feet away from me. It has been on many walls for two decades.

    "I shop every Christian bookstore in town and know everything they carry. I have never seen this verse and exquisite matting. Where did you ever find this?", I pleaded to know.

    "Well, you remember that day you told me your favorite Bible verse? I thought it was this one, but was not sure so I called to ask you again. I needed milk on the way home, and stopped at a grocery store, and when I walked in, ....there was your verse! I bought it for you after I called to be sure it was right".

    Imagine me getting the Bread of Life from a grocery store!

    [I returned the favor...but will save that for another time].
    I have occasionally mixed up my flowers and this Lily of The Valley proved over time to be a Venus Fly Trap, but I escaped alive.
    Be a full time dad, or date; not both.
    I chose dad.

    Romans 12:1-2 tells you the purpose of your life:
    A Living Sacrifice
    "Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.

    Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."

    This is WHAT you are to do with your life.
    HOW to do it is in Philippians 4:8, telling you the way to be transformed by the renewing of your mind. It explicitly states what you are to think on to do so.

    Think on all 8 items in the list, every day for a month, and how these apply to your life, and you will be live as God's perfect will has chosen for you.

  7. I just came over from my friend and yours Regina at (Daily Living)- I really enjoyed your story and the video took me by surprise..was so touching- thanks
    Regina (another one)


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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himseld and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: Life Application Bible]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].