“Nurse! Nurse!” “Why, you _____! Come here!”
“De….pu…ty!…….De…pu…ty! Let me out o’ here!”
The yelling was followed by the loud din of metal grating against metal. This nude suicidal inmate had been on the safety chair for a few hours to prevent him from hitting his head against the window. I went over to help the Intake Nurse last Sunday night. The smell of reeking alcohol filled the hall as many drunk bodies arrived. Some arrestees’ hands twisted to prevent them from trying to fight with the deputies. Appearing tough, they would soon discover that their arrogance was no match with the well-trained deputies.
“Depuuuutttyyyyy!” his scream cut through the stale air. “Let meeeeee outtttt!”
The sergeant had one of the deputies opened a tiny metal window.
“Okay! Mr. F. I’ll let you out only if you stop banging your head! Do you understand that? If you start doing anything to harm yourself, that’s it, you’re going back to the chair!”
5 deputies went in, along with the sergeant to the bare cell reserved for those needing close monitoring by the medical and custody staff. The pungent smell of urine overcame their nasal passages. One of the deputies behind him was holding a taser gun, the light pointed at his upper torso, ready to be fired if he would try anything to hurt anyone.
The Intake nurse assigned that night stood by the door, assessing the inmate whose body was strapped to the chair. The feet and the hands were also secured. He appeared calm. But his stares penetrated each and everyone as if he was on to something.
The chair was taken out. He was left all alone. As soon as the big metal door was closed, he started banging the door and window again. Demanding for some papers because he needed to write something. It was denied. He was suicidal so nothing was allowed to be kept by him.
He started yelling profanities to the sergeant despite her talking with him in a soft manner and ordering him to stop harming himself. With the pounding of his fists, it was matched with his foul language. He was defiant. He didn’t want to respect the authority. There was no history of mental problem. Except him, just refusing to obey the authority.
“Alright boys!” yelled the sergeant. “Let’s put him back on the chair!”
It grew quieter. He just stood by the window and glanced with a mean look. If he didn’t understand, he wouldn’t have stopped his defiance. He walked into one corner of the cold room. And for the rest of the hours I was there helping the Intake nurse, we finally had peace and quiet.
We must show reverence and fear to our Lord. To revere Him means to show our deepest love and respect and honor Him. Along with reverence, obedience must come.
“Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this is the whole duty of man.” - Ecclesiastes 12:13
Lord, You have freed me from all of my fears. You have given me joy instead. I cried out to You and You did hear me! You have set me free from all my fears. Your angel guards those who fear You. Help me Lord to give my reverence due You. Help me to trust in no one but You. Help me Lord to turn away from evil. Help me Lord to live in peace instead with others. Help me value Your commands and help me store them in my heart. Thank You Lord for Who You are. Thank You for Your love and mercy. Thank You for Your wisdom. In Jesus' Name. Amen.
I stand in prayer with you dear sis. Asking God to walk close by your side as you do your work. I love you.
ReplyDeleteI'm amazed at how many people had any kind of authority. Often I've found people who have been abused as a child resist any authority over them since they couldn't trust the ones who should have had their best intersts at heart.
ReplyDeleteI remember Zig Ziglar saying that prisons are filled with men who had difficult relationships with their fathers. I don't know if that is a statistic that is true but it seems to make sense.
I commend you for being a nurse in these surroundings. It takes a faith filled woman who trust and fears God to be used in this ministry.
May the Lord bless you and protect you.
Blessings and love,
Debbie
Oh we can only pray for all the tormented souls in this world including this suicidal inmate. Bless you: you are the hands and feet of Jesus in this place. Jo
ReplyDeleteYou definitely have a tough job. Be careful!
ReplyDeleteAnother tough story. Oh, the prison so many live in - not just the one with metal bars, but the one of sin, rebellion and defiance. We think we are free sometimes when we really aren't.
ReplyDeleteDo you have self defense training? I am afraid for you.
ReplyDelete@ Parsley: Thanks for asking. My defense? Just prayers. "For every child of God defeats this evil world by trusting Christ to give the victory." - 1 John 5:4
ReplyDeleteThank you everyone for always encouraging me and praying for me. God bless you all.
ReplyDeleteOh Rosel....praying with AND for You! Knowing you have Strength, you have a Shield, you have ALL YOU NEED in HIM! Bless you my friend! You truly are a light to those in a dark dark place
ReplyDeleteWow girl what you see and hear daily in your job, thank the good Lord that you know Him. Blessings to you dear.
ReplyDeleteAmen. We truly need to work out our salvation with fear and trembling.
ReplyDeleteGreat post my friend.
Blessings.
xo
yes to this prayer....It's so sad how people have lost themselves....have become so defiante and angry. thanks RCubes...for this awesome post and for being you and for your gentle loving heart.
ReplyDeleteRosel,
ReplyDeleteThank God for women of faith that stand in the gap for these poor men who have lost their way.
Love you my beautiful friend.
Bren
You have a tough and scary job my friend. Not just anyone could do it. I am sure the lord prepared and equiped you in the years leading up to this position. Blessings! Dee
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