I Can Hear And See You!

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." ~Jeremiah 33:3, NIV [emphasis mine].

He was crawling on the floor. Toward the slightly hidden toilet in a corner where he vomited. As other drunk bodies either ignored his behavior or just didn’t have a clue, too, to what was going on around each one of them. Deputies took turn. To write on the logs to make sure that everyone was okay. And my signature was in each of those logs, too. Writing down my observation. Making sure there were no obvious signs of health problems.

“Are you okay, Mr. M.?” I yelled through a thick glass partition window. He just glanced at me. And gave me a mean look. As if I bothered him to his short journey, moving inch to inch from the door toward that corner.

Then, more arrestees came. I glanced at my watch: “2:30 a.m.” That was the usual time when it would get busy at the prison’s Intake. When officers’ cars would start piling up outside the yard to bring their “arrested males or females”.

I was screening someone when a loud banging started on the glass window.

“Stop it!” yelled one of our own deputies.

“Bam! Bam! Bam!” I looked and saw Mr. M. doing sign language, with his right thumb and index finger, giving invisible puffs to his widely-opened mouth, holding his invisible inhaler.

“Nurse! I need an inhaler!” he yelled.

“Bam! Bam! Bam!”

“Didn’t I tell you to stop banging the window?” yelled the deputy another time.

“Nurse! Nurse! Bam! Bam! Bam!” I just looked calmly and finished questioning the arrestee in front of me. As I got done, I held the others waiting in line and went really quick to talk to Mr. M. who ignored me earlier. Holding an oxygen saturation monitor, the deputy opened a tiny metal door so he could put his fingers out and I took his oxygen level: 97% [which was great!].

“Take a deep breath!” I commanded. There were no audible wheezes.

“Just rest, Mr. M. I’m sorry that I can’t give you an inhaler. You’re obviously not having any asthma attacks and you are to be released in a few hours. It is our policy not to medicate those who are being released…And stop banging on the window. I can hear you and see you!” I explained.

And the banging continued after my assessment. He was mad at me for not giving him an inhaler. He kept calling for my attention when he knew that I already heard him and that I was right there so near to his cell the whole time. As he became more sober, the banging of the window lessened and he became more cooperative. I saw him let out of his cell to gather his belongings. Yes, he was freed. But one of these days, I knew I would hear him call “nurse!” again. He was trapped in the cycle of alcohol abuse. He had forgotten his own medical needs while he enjoyed his drinking. But one day, when caught again, and surely he wouldn’t be having fun locked up without his bottle, that would be the time when he would remember he has asthma.
I could just hear: “Nurse! Nurse! Bam! Bam! Bam!”…

“Lord, forgive us for the times that we forget you when everything is going great in our lives. Then, when things go wrong, that’s when some of us start calling Your Name out loud, wanting Your attention, Your help. Thank You that You are always forgiving, always waiting faithfully for those of us who have strayed so far from You. Thank You for loving us unconditionally. In Jesus’ Name. Amen”

From the video:
Man: “It has passed too much time…since I forgot Jesus…Would He ever listen to me if I call on Him now?…J…e…s…u…s… Jesus..”

Jesus: “My children rejoice! This is the old voice that I’ve wished to listen to so much for a long time…”


  1. You have been given such a gift of discernment Rosel ~ it amazes me how you handle these situations night after night....I know you will tell me .....by the Grace of God :) and you are absolutely correct! But...you still amaze me! and bless me every time I come here! Thank you for being such a grace filled woman of God! I love you

  2. Rosel,
    Blessings beyond measure . . . thanks again for sharing your work with me today.
    Your sister in Christ,

  3. Your stories of living in God's grace and responding to His voice in knowing how to handle what you do blows my mind. You have been gifted that is for sure. Have a great weekend Rosel. :)

  4. SIGH....wow...I could see the whole story before my eyes....powerful!

  5. Wonderful Rosel! And Sister, congratulations on being chosen in the top 100 blogs at the Internet Cafe! You deserve it! (((hugs)))

    Love you!

  6. I love the scripture at the beginning of your post. Jeremiah 33:3. That has been one that has really been on my heart for the past several months.

    The video at the end gave me chills and brought tears to my eyes. Absolutely beautiful.

    Hugs and blessings -- hope your weekend is wonderful, just like you!


  7. Many congrats on your achievement there dear one!!

    Lord I lift my friend up to you. Love that song. Cute video.

    Blessings and hugs.

  8. Hey Rosel!

    Thank you so much for sharing your daily life journey with us!! You bless and encourage the hearts of many!!

    Praying for you as you journey along with Him!!

    He is Faithful!!

    Hugs and Sweet Blessings!

  9. I'm so grateful for God's mercy, forgiveness and grace. So grateful for His faithfulness.

  10. Rosel, That is how I feel every time I see you have come to visit me. That you lift me to the Lord before you leave. As I do for you my friend. One day I am going to leave my email address and ask you to email me. I have a few things I would like to share. Carol

  11. wow, poor mr. m. what a great reminder. thank you for your obediance... xoxo LA

  12. I am so grateful He patiently calls us to Him. I love Jer 33:3!!! So thankful for the things He's been telling me lately. Have a blessed weekend friend...

  13. You bless me so much by everything you share sis. I love you.

  14. Beautiful post! I am always in for a treat when I visit you. Thank you for your continued blessings.

    Love to you

  15. He is always there...always listening....always available....I am really grateful for that and grateful for you and your heart for Him. Have a great weekend. You inspire always. Sarah

  16. Amen!
    The nearness of God is my good!
    Thank you for the inspiration dear one.
    Have a wonderful day and weekend.
    God bless!


  17. It seems like you must put on a certain mindset when you are at work. I would guess that you have learned to identify many forms of manipulations. Bless you in what you do.

  18. Amazing post! You tell your stories so vividly, I can see it as though I'm there. You are a powerful storyteller. Have you ever given any thought of writing a book? If you haven't, you should if it fits within God's will, of course.

    You are truly inspirational. Thank you for sharing this with us. You are truly a blessing! :)


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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himseld and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: Life Application Bible]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].