Find The Way Of The Lord

I found the Clinic almost empty except for one person whose work was equivalent to being a medical secretary. I had just walked in and was prepared to tackle another night of work.

Where’s everyone?” I asked that coworker.

They had a Code Blue [a code meaning the nurses are trying to revive an unconscious person] few minutes earlier before you walked in,” he replied.

Was it Mr. O?” I wondered.

Who’s Mr. O?”

Remember? He would always play around with staff, claiming that he swallowed razor blades? He was unpredictable. We would send him to the hospital and x-rays would show no razor. Other times, he did swallow one. He was in and out of the jail’s Suicide Watch.”

Yeah, yeah! I remember him now.”

The sheepish smile was widely painted on this young man’s face. The look on his eyes always beamed with pride that he would always have things his way, no matter what. Nurses couldn’t do anything, he knew. That even if his claim that he swallowed razor blades were false, the nurses had no choice but to send him out to the hospital. He seemed to have enjoyed those frequent trips. But most of all, he enjoyed getting things done his way!

His psychiatric medications were constantly changed, adjusted to his level of moods and behaviors. But every time, Mr. O always claimed he did something to try to hurt himself. The medications seemed to not have reached its full potential to help his mental state.

That night was not a unique one. It was another typical night of him playing around with his own life. He reassured the deputy from that unit that he wouldn’t do such a foolish thing. But it was the duty of deputies to check often cell per cell, every hour.

The body was motionless. [Pardon me friends, I wouldn’t write the manner of how he did it]. The deputy frantically called over the radio for a “Code Blue”. The Clinic was only across from that unit’s hallway. But their effort that was going on for a few minutes, almost an hour before I entered my workplace, remained futile.

He finally had it his way. And it resulted to a devastating loss. He was a young man, whose life was ruined by the use of drugs. His mental capabilities deteriorated over time.

God only knew if he meant to just play around, like the usual. But this time, he couldn’t get out of his own scheme.

How many of us are the same? Wanting to do everything with our own strength and effort - having things done our way, not God’s way? Doing so, most of the time, leads to a DISASTER! Stop now while you can!

Proverbs 3:5,6 -"Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths."


  1. What a disaster we make of things when we try to go our own way. Like Mr. O we can not get out of the horrible consequences that often follow our choices.
    With GOD, we have a clearer path. Thank you for shining brightly on your path to fulfilling GOD's plan for your life.
    Blessings, prayers, and love, andrea

  2. That awful devil that comes to steal, kill and destroy. But Jesus came to give us life and life abundantly. Liked the song a lot!


  3. Rcubes, what a powerful story. God is the ultimate, even if it is hard for us sometimes to accept this! Thanks so much for sharing!

  4. I stand in agreement with what Mary said above.

    I'm saddened for the decisions that young man made and the ultimate price. I pray MANY will be led to your blog who need to read this and STOP and HEAR GOD.

    Blessings dear sister.

  5. I pray God will continue to use you to help others, love you my friend.

  6. "Pseudo faith always arranges a way out to serve in case God fails it. Real faith knows only one way and gladly allows itself to be stripped of any second way or makeshift substitutes. For true faith, it is either God or total collapse. And not since Adam first stood up on the earth has God failed a single man or woman who trusted him."

    A. W. Tozer, "True Faith Brings Committal," In The Root of the Righteous, pages 49-50.

  7. Rosel,

    I feel your heart in this post! Even though Mr. O made many attempts and lived his life on his terms I feel the sadness and I am sorry! God shines brightly in you to all you are in contact work, here on your blog and I have no doubt even those whom you may visit in a store...You just shine for HIM always! I pray comfort to all those who had to witness this and ask the Lord as you work tonight that the atmosphere will be filled and covered by the Holy Spirit!

    Love you Rosel!

  8. Aww! I really get mad hearing and seeing people like that. But more often, too, they end up in tragedy.
    Thanks for sharing this story to us, Rcubes. :)

  9. That is so sad that he didn't value the life and time of grace here on earth that God gave him to come to know His Heavenly Father. What a waste! It grieves me so to see this happen. What would cause a person to hate his life so much that he would throw it all away - no matter what situation he found himself in. I know he was in prison - but how sad to not LEARN from his mistake!

    I can't imagine the pain that our Lord feels to have a beloved child of His throw it all away for all eternity in this way. To waste his chance to get to know the One who gave him life! ~sigh~

    I have said it more than once my friend - but it must be so hard for you to keep your spirits up having to deal with this kind of grief for your fellow man on a daily basis. What a burden you must feel! I haven't known you very long - but I want you to know that if you ever feel the need to vent or to have someone to pray with you - or FOR you - to help uplift you from the sorrow that surely this job of yours must cause occasionally, PLEASE call on me! If you want to send me a personal email that is fine too. I will pray with and for you and be a shoulder for you as well. We must lift wach other up through our difficulties - to help refresh and renew our spirits for the hard work that the Lord has given us to do.

    I think you are wonderful and I applaud the great job you are doing as you work for our blessed Lord Jesus!

  10. I do not feel "mad" hearing about people like this young man. First of all...if he is swallowing razors....he certainly had problems. My guess is that he came from an abusive background and was never loved. Being in prison.....I would think he did not have the benefit of the best pshycological treatment etc.

    After saying that...I believe in a sovereign God and if He would have wanted to save this young man....He would have. And one further thought.....only by His grace....this young man could have been me!

  11. Bro.Ike: It could have been "any" of us. Unfortunately, this man was very unpredictable. That was just his kind of game and I felt that it was his thrill to feel that he was in control all the time. I wasn't surprised that night, he was the first man to come to mind and I was right! Because I felt that from the very beginning when I first treated him, that whether he would do something on purpose or not, something bad would come out of his behavior. I believed that would only be God who could help him. There are so many like him. A lot stemming from drug use that their mental capabilities are very distorted.
    Thanks for your visits.

  12. Kymber: I thank you for the sweet offer. I'm not boasting about anything but "God's grace" that because of Him, I am in no way affected by what goes on. Not that I'm insensitive but I know that He placed me there, to be helpful using my nursing skills and through that, prayerfully, for the inmates to see that there is hope...that hope that comes from our Savior Jesus Christ. Sometimes, we don't need to speak and they can read our testimonies through our own behaviors/actions/attitudes.
    You came to mind yesterday when I was going to work. I want to return the offer instead...that if you need any help, don't hesitate to ask me. :)
    Thank you all and God bless.


"Faith is taking the first step even if you don't see the whole staircase..."
~ Martin Luther King, Jr.

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]

Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.

Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.

All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.

When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.

The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.

When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himseld and ended up injuring his attacker severely.

[Source: Life Application Bible]:

We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.

“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14

Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].

Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.

Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.

Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].