The Search

Working two nights per week in this detention facility I work with is enough to make me observe what goes on during the nights that I'm there...


A pair of dirty hands from a young man was against the wall, on top of black painted set of hands. The deputy spread his legs wide open and started searching his whole body and the clothes' pockets. Up and down his torso, the gloved hands were careful not to miss any possible hidden weapons from this young man.


Searching into one of the back pockets of his faded denim jeans, the deputy swept a small, plastic-wrapped amount of some kind of white, powdery material. The deputy dropped it on the floor as he continued to search the young man. The young man's face was terrified upon seeing what was discovered by the deputy from his pocket. He thought it was too small to be noticed. He started getting nervous.




More bodies poured in, into that area called "Search and Hold", as the other deputies started doing the same routine of searching for any items that are illegal, like weapons or drugs, with these group of newcomers. One by one, they were subjected to this thorough searching.


The young man was led to sit on the chair by the Intake Nurse's small clinic. He was interrogated by the nurse to make sure that he was medically fit to be booked in. He slumped on the chair, with a haggard look, said "no" to all the medical questions. He denied having any medical or mental problems.


The deputy then, directed him to go to a particular cell, where he was supposed to wait for his name to be called so he could be booked. Drops of sweats became visible on his forehead. His heart was pounding. He knew that the discovery of small amount of drugs from his pocket would be used as evidence for the second time now that he was arrested.


He knew this was his last chance to change. If caught on the third occasion, he would spend his life into a longer prison term. He softly mumbled, "Dear God, help me! No more. This is it!"

He cooperated and obeyed whatever the custody staff told him to do. This time, he was really determined to change. For the best!


I placed my hands together, too except my knees were bended on the floor. I allowed the "Deputy" to search me through and through - my heart! I pray that He would discover the things that were hindering my walk, things that stall the progress of my work.


The "Deputy" saw the small amount of white stuff, covered in plastic material. How did I allow the righteousness from Christ be covered with my own self-righteousness? I started getting nervous and I could hear my heart pounding.


The "Deputy" took me and made me sat in front of the Intake Nurse [Holy Spirit]. All of the nurse's questions convicted me. But I said, "no" and denied I had problem with anything.


So, the "Deputy" then brought me to a cell so I could wait for a moment until I get called.


Sweating profusely, I mumbled, "God, help me! This is it! I need You to get rid of the things or ways that I do that do not please You. I know, O Lord, that if I don't allow You to search my heart, I will be wasting everyday, not doing whatever You willed for me. I want to be able to remain "FREE". I don't want to trust my own heart but in Yours. I want to do that before I get called."


So, while waiting to be called, there I was obeying the Word and instructions..."
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Psalm 139:23 -"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts."

Psalm 139:24 -"See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

Romans 8:27 -"And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will."

Revelation 2:23 -"Then all the churches will know that I am he who searches hearts and minds, and I will repay each of you according to your deeds."

6 comments:

  1. Yes, search my heart daily God. See if there be any wickedness. Clean me I pray.

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  2. Rosel,

    I loved your story and the way you turned it around. Awesome post my friend.

    Romans 8:27 -"And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will." Yes, the Spirit does intercede on our behalf and I thank you Lord that you search my heart 24/7 and wash me clean in Jesus precious name. Amen!

    Much love & hugs,
    Alleluiabelle

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  3. Searching our hearts! God never fails!
    He knows His children. God bless you my friend.
    Your sister in Christ,
    Bren

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  4. Rosel,

    I have something special just for you at my post this morning. Please stop by and see your "golden" package!

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

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  5. Rosel,

    I wanted to make sure I got you before you visited my site first this morning and just read your beautiful post!

    I love getting up and sharing coffee with you each morning as I read what you wrote.

    God has blessed you with such a beautiful gift of writing but for healing spiritually lost souls as well.

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

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  6. I love the way you weave your work shift adventures into posts about God. I likely will never see what you see and so I am grateful that you take the time to pour out your gift into this blog. You blessed me!

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]


Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.


Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.


All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.


When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.


The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.


When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himseld and ended up injuring his attacker severely.


[Source: Life Application Bible]:


We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.


“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14


Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].


Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.


Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.


Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].

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