Trust in God
Mr. X in safety cell 1 started getting more anxious and was yelling profanities as I was coming along to get my report from the outgoing nurse. He had been refusing his psych. meds for the past days that added as a factor to his already odd behavior. Few minutes later, he started banging the metal door and caused a high potential to hurt himself physically. I had the deputies put him on the safety chair and decided that it was the right moment to administer the meds ordered by the psych doctor to calm him down. His blood pressure was high at 153/103. A couple of hours later, he was sound asleep. Sensing that he would be more calm when he woke up, I had the deputies release him from the safety chair. His blood pressure returned to normal at 124/84. There were other situations that demanded my own autonomous decisions and they were not easy. I used to be afraid of making wrong decisions. I used to be afraid of just being there in that place knowing how busy it could be and there was no other help, medical-issue wise.
But I know that God is there with me anywhere, anytime. I know that I can call on my God to help me out. Jesus said in Matthew 6:8, "Your Father knows the things you need before you ask Him." Yes, I still need to pray...all the time even if God knows what I need. It just proves how much I need Him and without Him, I am nothing. The more I realize my dependence on Him, the more thankful I feel because then, I know that nothing is impossible to achieve when I know He will always be there for me. He sees me and my intentions. Proverbs 3:5 reminds me all the time to"trust in the Lord with all of my heart and lean not on my own understanding." How wonderful to know that God is always there and He is Someone I can lean on at all times.
The Attacker (5/15/09)
The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies.
Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.
Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.
All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.
When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.
The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.
When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himself and ended up injuring his attacker severely.
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We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.
“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14
Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].
Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.
Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.
Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].