The Best Way To Live

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Pushing the EKG machine with fast strides, I rang the bell from the unit across from the Infirmary. This was a special unit that housed those inmates that required a closer monitoring for their mental or health needs.

“Okay, nurse Rcubes,” greeted the unit’s nurse as she walked out from the bubble [control room], looking exhausted and upset.

“I tried everything. He just didn’t want to deal with me anymore because I wouldn’t send him to the hospital. He wants a doctor now. I’ll let you try to deal with him because when he didn’t get what he wanted, now he’s complaining of chest pain,” she explained.

He was one of those inmates, going in and out of the hospital for chest pains. Despite the vital signs being normal, we just couldn’t ignore those kind of complaints. Because you just never know if it was the real deal.

He was sitting on the bottom bunk, housed alone. Not looking at me, he constantly was rubbing his chest.

“Sir, would you be able to go to our “G room” [nursing clinic in a unit] so I can do an EKG on you and see what’s going on in your heart?” I asked.

Still not looking at me and perceiving there were 3 shadows lurking in front of him [2 deputies and myself], he answered, “No! I can’t get up!” he uttered in a slightly raised voice.

“I understand that you got upset with the other nurse. But your vital signs were normal. That’s why I wanted to do this EKG so I can find out if I need you to go to the hospital.”

“I said I can’t get up!” he said in a louder and higher tone.

The deputy butted in, “So, if you couldn’t get up, how did you manage to ring the bell? [which was up on the wall, a few steps away from his bed].”

This made him more upset and now yelling, “Get the ___ out! If you don’t want to send me to the hospital, get the ___ out!” he demanded.

“I can’t force to do an EKG on you but I want to let you know that it’s available when you feel like you can use it,” I answered still trying to be calm, despite knowing that there was nothing wrong with him. In my heart, I felt sadness…

Sadness, knowing that we, nurses, just want to help them and a lot of them turn up always upset, speaking in foul languages back to us. Despite us knowing they are just being manipulative, we still try to treat them with respect. In a way, it hurts deep inside. It feels like something is violated when they don’t respond to the kindness shown. Not that we expect anything back. But they have choices to make. To do things: good or bad.

I feel sadness, too. Everyday. Trying to ponder whether I hurt Him or not. I know that I can bring sorrow to the Holy Spirit by the way I live. And that’s my prayer…Knowing that I am not perfect. Like a child who imitates the parents, I want to follow Him. His example. Jesus’ example. His great love for us nailed Him on that cross. So I can live. So you can live. He wants us to love Him first, then, love others. So, what’s the best way to live? That is to follow Christ...

“And do not bring sorrow to God’s Holy Spirit by the way you live. Remember, he is the one who has identified you as his own, guaranteeing that you will be saved on the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of malicious behavior. Instead, be kind to each other, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God through Christ has forgiven you.” ~ Ephesians 4:30-32



Lord, I have nothing to offer You but only my heart. My life. My everything. Forgive me for hurting You. Please forgive me for grieving Your Spirit. Create in me a clean heart Oh Lord. I want to know You more. On a deeper level. Help me Lord to make the right decisions. And that is to follow You in all of my ways. Thank You Lord for Your love. Your mercy. Your grace. I love You Lord. Thank You for loving me first. Help me grow in Your love and knowledge. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

12 comments:

  1. Such a precious prayer sis, love you dearly.

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  2. I look forward to when I have time and get to read your posts. You consistently encourage and inspire me.

    As to your patient, I think it's extra hard with mentally ill individuals. In addition to the typical manipulation, there's also the fact that they are sometimes convinced of untrue things that no amount of logic or reasoning in the world will convince them different.

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  3. What challenges you face in your nursing profession. I've no doubt, though, that you are uniquely fitted by the Lord to be there, and to minister as His emissary.

    Besides that, you have such a gift for weaving your experiences into testimonies or life-lessons that we all get to ponder.

    Blessings,
    Kathleen

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  4. Thank you for another insightful post. It is hard sometimes to deal with people, even those we love dearly. God bless you in your work.

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  5. Timely video and song Rosel. Thank you for another wonderful post as well. Blessings.

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  6. I come in agreement with your prayer as I pray the same thing. Lord I give you my heart is one of my favorite worship songs. Love the post.

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  7. Rosel,

    You know when I have visions of you it is first at the feet of Jesus kneeling, then I see you as a teacher, then I see you w this powerful armor over you, yet w/ a wand that is full of love and strength on one end and then yet a god given ability to set a boundary again in love. I love how you teach and love no matter where you are or what you are doing! Thank you for shining the Light of Jesus in ALL you do!

    I love you Rosel

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  8. Some patients are very difficult, whether from fear or just to be obnoxious, who can say. It takes patience and prayer all the time.
    I love that song! I love singing it with all my heart also. Bless you today.

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  9. Hello Sister. I wonder if the inmate just wanted to leave the jail -- a change of scenery, a sense of normalty again. So sad indeed. I can't imagine being trapped, held against my will like that.

    I hate to grieve our Lord too Rosel.

    Bless you friend!
    Beth

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  10. I echo what Beth in NC said. The inmate sounds like he's trying to find freedom although in a crazy way. Freedom....is a gift. His gift and you are a blessing. Life for so many is too hard...I'm glad you're there even though sometimes I'm sure it all weighs on you. Praying for His strength to fill you everytime you step into that prison.

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  11. Amen. Beautiful post my friend.
    All my thoughts and prayers.

    XO

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  12. Hi! Yes, it is sad when all we want to do is help someone. I recently was asked out by a guy at church. I accepted and we spent three days talking and hanging out. He constantly talked about his ex and she even texted his cell phone nasty comments about me. (She doesn't know me.) He kept telling me he was over her (I asked b/c I wanted to know before I invested any more time)but turns out he was lying. They got back together. All this after he told me he was over her and how hurt he was that in the year they dated he was the one giving 100% (paying her bills, buying her expensive gifts, taking her Starbucks and donughts at work, buying and lots of time doing all the cooking of the groceries, making her car payments to keep it from being repossessed....on and on and on. I guess you can't make someone see what is right under their nose. They have to learn the hard way. I'm thanking God for a closed door. It just means he has something/someone else better for me!

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The Attacker (5/15/09)

The sun was just peeking from the Eastern skies. Ephesians 6:12 [37 kb]


Out in the prison’s yard, some huge Sheriff’s buses were illuminated by the soft glow coming from the lights all over from the tall lamp posts. Their engines were turned on, warming up, before the buses would take the inmates to the different courts where they would have their trials.


Orange-uniformed men were lined up in pairs, joined together with handcuffs and chained, forming a long line. They already had their breakfast and had their morning medications prior to going to courts. Some were fidgeting, as they waited to board those buses.


All of a sudden, all hell broke loose! Two men were engaged in a fight, using weapons they made secretly for a while. Deputies called for help on the radio, both for custody back-up and medical staff, as well.


When the air was cleared and the other inmates were secured, one man was down on the floor. He sustained multiple gashes but two of them were deep. One cut was vertically etched from his left ear going down to the jaw line. The other dangerous cut was horizontal on his left neck, close to the jugular vein. Pool of blood dripped all over the floor. Holding his bleeding neck, he was pointing at the other inmate few feet away, being guarded by the other deputies.


The other man being accused was not hurt. There were no lacerations nor any other signs of trauma. He was obviously very agitated as he was being questioned by those deputies, while the medical staff started treating the other man on the floor. They cleaned the wounds and controlled the bleeding. That man was sent to the nearby hospital.


When the investigation was finalized, it turned out to be that the “downed man who was accusing the other inmate” was the attacker and the other one who didn’t have injury was the one attacked. The deputies found out that it was the second attempt to attack the unhurt man. Both attacks on him failed. He was well-prepared after the first attempt on him, that when the second attempt was done, he was able to defend himseld and ended up injuring his attacker severely.


[Source: Life Application Bible]:


We also have an “accuser of the brethren.” Satan and his army of demons are the enemies of God and of everything good.


“Because God’s children are human beings – made of flesh and blood – Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. For only as a human being could he die, and only by dying could he break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death.” –Hebrews 2:14


Because of what Jesus had done [dying on the cross], we, who live in constant fear of death shouldn’t be afraid anymore. Jesus had freed us from that fear so we can live for Him. When we belong to God, we know that death is only the portal that leads into “eternal life”. [“Thank You Lord!].


Paul warned us, too that we also battle against the evil forces of Satan, who is a vicious fighter. But to be able to withstand their attacks, we must depend on God’s strength and use every piece of His armor. We face an army whose goal is to defeat Christ’s church. When we believe in Christ, they become our enemies. They will try any device to turn us away from the Lord.


Fear not! For God has provided His supernatural power to defeat Satan and his army, through His Holy Spirit within us. So, arm yourselves with God’s armor.


Let us be strong in the Lord's mighty power. Let's put on His whole armor to resist the enemy's attacks: put on the sturdy belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News, so that we are well-prepared. We will need faith in every battle as our shield to stop the fiery arrows aimed by Satan and his army. Let us put on salvation as our helmet, not forgetting the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. Let's pray at all times, on every occasion in the power of the Holy Spirit. We must stay alert and be persistent in our prayers for all Christians everywhere. [Ephesians 6:10-18].

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