“Good morning,” I replied softly as my mind started wandering.
Wandering back to that day when she was in front of me, during a crucial meeting with regards to my work situation. I thought about how she intended to pursue to not have anything available for my request. The way she answered the questions of two more people in power, incompletely and often with half truths.
Despite the painful wounds she created in my heart and spirit with her lies and her own motive to crush me, I managed to glance at her direction at the opposite side of the wooden, conference table and uttered, “Have a good day”. She didn’t expect that kind of greeting from me, after being wounded deeply and unexpectedly. That was also a signal I gave to conclude our private session in which they had me pierced with their planned decision to end my career in the prison, as I refused to answer anymore and sign the piece of paper they had prepared where things were written quite differently from what they were verbally saying to my face.
She must remember that short but powerful moment of the way I responded to her hurtful, piercing remarks with gentleness. But I wished that she would realize it wasn’t because of my nature. I did that because He lived in me.
“But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives, he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Here there is no conflict with the law.” – Galatians 5:22
Lord, I am only but a shadow in Your light. Their words hurt but they will not wound me deep enough to paralyze me. Their plans for me are already outlined but I know it’s You Who directs our steps and it is only You Who formed us in our mother’s wombs. I pray dear Lord that through me, they will hear Your Word that is sharper than a double-edged sword. This sWORD that will penetrate their souls and spirits, their joints and marrow and make them realize that it’s You Who truly alone judges the thoughts and attitudes of the hearts. Please empower me with Your Spirit so that any wrong desires can be overcome by the fruits of the Spirit. Help me with Your strength for me to continue to easily forgive them and may they see Your grace through me. Lord, let Your Word speak!!! To them who needs to hear You. And to me who needs to continue to get to know more things about You. Thank You Lord for Your faithful love and mercy. Thank You for Your grace. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.