The Lieutenant

From now on, don't let anyone trouble me with these things. For I bear on my body the scars that show I belong to Jesus. - Galatians 6:17 (NLT)

I heard a familiar voice whose footsteps walked in silently into the Infirmary. Not greeting anyone of us. The figure went directly to the Charge Nurse’s desk and asked something about an inmate. Her ebony hair I had seen before. Brushed up and gathered in a ponytail the way I had seen it first. She glanced at my direction by the computer as I also looked at her at the same time. I smiled at her. She just looked back at the Charge Nurse who wasn’t even looking at her, looking down on some paper works on her desk. She never looked at my direction again. But I sensed. She remembered me. And she couldn't look at my direction.


She was one of those sitting in higher positions who gave me a hard time regarding my position as a Correctional Nurse. She must have heard a lot of “hear-says” from others like the supervisors where I usually worked and agreed with their decisions. Though she didn't know about me. They wanted me to quit though I had not done anything wrong. They accused me of lies that were unfounded.

Much later, I heard…that she was our Lieutenant now. I didn’t know. She got promoted from being a Sergeant when she first dealt with me. Her and the others scarred my heart. With their  false accusations. They intimidated me. So I could quit. I faced two choices when that trial occurred:

To become bitter or to remain feeling better.

She must be surprised that I remained working. Getting along well with my co-workers. Thankful that I was still picking up shifts because it was always short of staff. Some of my co-workers knew my struggle with them. I heard so much about her much later. No one liked her. She never said “hello” to deputies even. Maybe a few. And that they perceived her as very arrogant.

Anger wanted to steal the peace and joy residing in my heart that moment I saw her. Bitterness that wanted to establish ground in my heart was testing my will power again if I would let her roots grow.

No!!!

The “waiting period” I had been in, the Lord Jesus turned into good. That was why I stayed joyful. Feeling “better” because of the strength He had given me. Because of the inexhaustible hope He gave me. What those people took away from me, He replaced with immaterial blessings that had far more worth.

Her face showed it all. She didn’t seem happy. She looked very tired. Despite being promoted and earning higher salaries. In this world, that seemed to be a place of fulfillment. When in reality, it would never be.

One’s fulfillment is not measured by what she or he holds in his hands. One’s fulfillment comes from the secure hold on him or her by the Scarred Hands.

As I wait for the outcome of my charge against them, whether I win or lose doesn’t matter anymore. I am just grateful to know the real satisfaction that comes from knowing Jesus. He soothed my scars. He comforted my broken heart. Who better does the healing but Him Who chose to have the scars on His hands because He loved us?



Scars
Words and music by Ray Boltz

I heard Him call my name
He said I've come to save you
But I was so ashamed
I turned to walk away
He reached out His hand
And said I have something to show you
And what I saw changed my life that day

CHORUS:
I saw His scars
No He didn't try to hide them
He said, Come and look inside them
They are a window to my heart
And don't forget I love you
Just the way you are
I knew it must be true
I saw His scars
I said Lord my scars are deep
And I don't want You to see them
So many of them were caused
By things I chose to do
He said, Look again
At the ones that I am wearing
Don't you know I chose these scars too?

CHORUS
And one day in Heaven
When we are on our knees
We'll look up at Jesus
And I believe we'll see
We'll see His scars
No, He will not try to hide them
He'll say, Come and look inside them
They're a window to my heart
And don't forget I love you
Just the way you are
And we'll know that it's true
We'll see His scars
We'll see His scars
No He will not try to hide them
He'll say, Come and look inside them
They're a window to my heart
And don't forget I love you
Just the way you are
Oh we'll know that it's true
Because He died for me and you
Oh we'll know that it's true
We'll see His scars

8 comments:

  1. Thank you Rosel for sharing yet another powerful post and video. Blessings.

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  2. Wow, so very powerful. I love you sweet friend.

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  3. So glad you chose better....what a grand example of christian character....your ordeal was and is painful but still you follow Jesus teachings. \0/ :)

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  4. I just love the many & varied stories that have come out of your "ordeal" - for God's glory & your joy! I thought of this song (for those who have been your tormentors) as I read your post: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpjUIq7ahrQ

    Blessings,
    Kathleen

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  5. Hi RCubes -

    Thank you for this faith booster and reminder that when we do things GOD'S way, triumph is the result.

    His way is always the best. You made it clear here that we need to cleave to our Lord, regardless.

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  6. I am glad to you have chose to stay and show the way a courageous wise hearted woman handles adversity. Your post always encouraged me and make me thankful I am not in your ministry. God surely knew who to put there. Shine on sister.

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  7. It's wonderful how God always brings good out of bad circumstances when we turn them over to Him. So much good has come from your continuing to work there and post your experiences with all of us.

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  8. Lovely Rosel. Wow... she saw you smile... probably it burned her. SHe couldn't bear to look back. I admire you for smiling at her, dear friend. But also being honest about the struggle, not to be angry. In God's eyes, you have won the case. Oh, how I keep praying for justice and vindication. Well, if not in this world, certainly in the next. God has spoken it to me clearly, in the end, the scores will be evened out.

    Much love to you today
    Lidia

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